Kevs.

Dear Dad,

Hallo, Belated. Tnry kitang tawagan kahapon, kaso hindi ka naman sumagot. Nag msg ako hindi ka naman nag reply. Buti pa sa iba nag message ka. Pinost nung minessage mo sa FB ung message mo skanya. AT! mukhang dinelete na yata, Haha ililike ko oa man din sana, nascreen grab ko nga eh.. Anyway wag ka mag alala hindi ako magsusumbong kay mother. Wala din naman akong mapapala hehe.. Kevs.

Nag post ako sa fb ng picture naten noong 2015 christmas, tinag pa kita. Grabe andme mong mga kaibigan na bumati. Pag tinag kita mahina ang 100 likes. Minimum likes mo ata ay 100 pataas. Sabi nga namen ni ate, isa kang social butterfly, lahat gusto kang kasama. Cool ka kasi eh. Lahat kasi sila pinapahalagahan mo, lahat sila binibigyan mo ng attensyon.Wala naman sigurong masama maging friendly. Anyway hindi ko maipaliwanag ng maige, pero naiintindihan kita sa sitwasyon mo ngayon, comeon it runs in the blood sabi mo nga? bunso ka din kasi and lalaki tayo, mahina. Charot. Kahit nakakatampo, hindi ko na lang iniisip. Kasi kevs.

Pasensya na mejo masama loob ko. Nung pasko, dumalaw ako sa Doha. Lahat ng kaibigan mo Daddy halos ang tawag sayo. Haha, pwede mag selos ng konti diba? kasi ako talaga orig na anak eh. Pero kalma lang ako. Kevs lang.

Hindi ako umasa ng material na bagay sayo nung dumalaw ako sa Doha. Hindi ko nga magets kung bakit tila hirap na hirap ka sa buhay eh graduate naman na kami ni ate. San ka ba nag iiinvest?
At buti pa silang mga kaibigan mo, pinautang mo pa minsan. Ako kasi naalala ko gusto ko mag acting class, hindi mo ako sinuportahan. My gahd, bitter pa ako. Kevs na kevs mo akez non. Di bale pag iipunan ko na lang yung gusto kong gawen. Puro sama ng loob gusto ko sabihin sayo kaso, parehas na tayo ngayon, kevs. Ayaw na ten ma stress diba?

Kaya Kevs. Ang relasyon nateng mag ama ay tila naging kevs.
Basta  ganito na lang, pasalamat ako kay lord at naging mabuti kang ama saaken.
Mahal kita. Mahal mo din ako diba. So aun. Kevs lang tayo.

Finally. Enrique wah!

I am not really a fan of going to concerts kasi as I always say. "hindi mo naman sila mahahawakan". True, but who knows I might be picked from the crowd and give him a smack! lol. By watching his previous concerts, he kissed one fan on stage. Niamet. Inshalla, pick me ENRIQUE!

I had a huge crush on this guy since HS. And I thought I look like him sometimes, nyaha walang basagan. Ang gwapo ko este niya! I bought 2 tickets to this concert, one for me and my date, my MOM. This would be my valentines gift for her. IM SO EXZOOITED!

FIL-AM

Dear Lord,

Thank you for showering me with blessings these past few days.
I am gonna work harder to deserve these blessings and I am gonna pray and work smarter for everything, I trusted your timing, and I know this is the moment I have been waiting for. I will improve myself more by learning and I should never stop learning. I should stay away from my comfort zone. Thank you for giving me hope and love. Thank you because I have great parents and a strong loving family, I will always try my best to be happy and avoid negativity. I will love more, show kindness and forgive people. Thank you for everything, I am truly blessed.

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We are in the 2nd month of the year and by far this it is going well!

To start with, I just wanna blog about my realization, that, I have learned to fully enjoy what I earned from hard work by splurging wisely. I am so proud of myself for being frugal since early childhood. I just want to say, I no longer, somehow deprive myself for the things I want to buy. But I am still the same old person who thinks not twice but thrice when buying anything, especially on gadgets. I honestly grew up buying the things I need. I wasn't born rich, but we were good and we work hard for what we want.

To start, I bought a new mountain bike(Land Rover - folding). I am surely enjoying every moment when I use it, it is kind of heavy but I will make modifications to lighten the bike. Still I am happy for buying this bike instead of getting another gym membership. :) ha! For those who have back pains like me, consider not only the price of the bike but the weight and how can you put it inside your trunk. But I've always wanted to buy a bike ever since I came here. Whoever invented bikes, you are amazing.

For the thousands of wired earphones I had. Sorry, I am hoping that my new wireless, ehem, I bought wireless earphones - brand name Samsung Iconx. The sound is, the bomb. However it only last 3 hours. Well, biking for 3 hours with these monsters aren't bad at all :)

Yesterday, I have decided to learn another skill rather than lazing around weekends. I went to videography class only to find out that they require students to buy a dslr cam. And I bought one last night.. And the funny part is that I haven't told my mom. I don't think there will be a problem on it, she will just say, congratulations, you bought it. My new DSLR camera is a Nikon d5200 :D The original price was 1800AED. But when I came across one facebook page, I saw a great deal and the seller happens to live 2 bldgs away from ours. Isnt it amazing! The owner of the camera didn't even had the chance to use the camera that much, It was good as new and no scratches. The reason why he was selling the camera is that he is in dire need of the money. The camera was sold for 1200AED, I tried not looking at him when he was telling me that the money earned from selling his camera will be used for his daughter, his daughter that needs to go on an exit as the visa is about to expire. Well at least I got to help someone. Sacrifices made him sold his passion. So people, don't get married yet. HAHA! Kidding. I wanted to cry in front of him. It was a sappy moment. Happy for the new cam and buying it in a cheaper price. Sad cause I had to buy it from a very passionate and aspiring photographer.

I shopped for corporate clothes, I buy food in restaurants sometimes,. I am getting a credit card this week, I got a line at Du last month. Soon I might get my own car and bring the GF here, :) It is kind of scary but I am amazed how a I am blessed these past few days. As annoying as it may seem I am #blessedeveryday

I love me. I am a fil-am. FILIPINO AMAZING. Char

Yesternight, if that's even a word. Ha!

Two weeks ago, a colleague set up a karaoke night. I am actually not a fan of going out in groups. But I tried, for a change. Because I have been in my shell for quite some time. I mean everyone would like to be in a group where you'd feel happy, supported, belonged etc. I deserve a drink for the hell week. And my fears of going to that event came. All the time I am always a target of attention. I do not like being in the lime light, I don't like being the spot light. Some people enjoy being the eye candy of a party, but I don't. This is why, I tend to be quiet on the side of the room, sometimes I distract myself using my earphones. I intentionally eat alone sometimes during lunch breaks and don't make eye contact with loud people. I seriously don't like face to face bashing, whether it is good about me or not. I don't like being microphoned to let anyone I have a new gadget, new hair doo, I lost or gained weight. I seriously hate reaching the headlines. This is the reason I don't like joining parlor games at parties, because you'll be the center of laugh lines. in other words.

PIKON po kasi ako. I believe in the saying

I'd rather be silent, than to say something rude. But why does my silence gets reciprocated by this? Being attacked, deliberately. 

My favorite teacher, way back once told me that words are like swords it is strong enough to break someone. So be careful with the words you let out of your mouth, you cannot take it back anymore.

I had a rough week, a very exhausting week. My workload was too much for me. And so there was one engineer, who knew me, I didn't know him. He started asking about one contract, I wanted to explain but I was tired and I just wanted to have a good time. I fired back by saying, I want to have fun. Strike one. 

Even the nicest people has limitations, I was being nice and firm. I didn't even smirked, I know I am doing well at my work. Few more bottles of Heineken, he started feeling a little bit too high of himself. I usually stay on the side, karaokeking. Again, if that's even a word. Karaokeing. I don't remember why all of the sudden he was talking about another contract. I felt pissed. I went to the toilet to flush and ignore the vibes he was starting to say. I fucking want to have a good time. 

When I came back another engineer was there. I was dead silent, but my head keeps on talking, "Jeez, another asshole, another feeling gwapo looking gago". Nobody heard it, it was all in my head and now in my blog. LOL. I started going in and out of the karaoke room. When I came back Engineer number 1 started a connivance with Engineer 2, I wasn't listening. They were teasing me, attacking me, fuck these retards. I went out again and again, a couple from my right, I think noticed my continuous going in and out scheme. 

And there goes my patience, gone, as Engineer 1, called me Jollibee. Although I love Jollibee, I super hate people making fun of my name. I remember a classmate way back in elementary got into the guidance office as he kept teasing me with my unique name. I felt really really upset. The face of my sister, when we were still enemies, haha, flashed into my head, she said "Bato bato sa langit and tamaan wag magagalit, ang pikon ay laging talo"

I stood up and told another friend that I will leave at 11. I ignored and ignored the engineer. My pride, my tired soul, won, by ignoring him. I think I won. This is why I never like engineers. Kidding. My dad used to say if a guy keeps on teasing you, he likes you, well, I don't like these kind of men. Still I am proud of myself, for not snapping. And keeping my virtues intact.

For now, I guess. I will not go out in groups anymore. As I get older, I just really want to be surrounded by lovable and good people, people who are good for me and good for my soul. That would be my family, my great friends, and my love life. 

So if you ask me why do I look in the ground, because anyone is capable of breaking my soul. This is how I keep myself from drama. 

Living in Sharjah

I am not sure if I blogged about this, but my mom and I  moved to Sharjah because we knew rent was hiking up in Dubai. It was no longer nice to pay for an amount that we could invest a condo in Manila and it was no longer practical as an overseas worker. Although we are not supporting anyone. It wasn't just practical! - Thank god, I am not a single mom or what. LOL

1. Well, I found out that maybe, just maybe another reason why we moved to Sharjah, why I live miles away from Dubai civilization is that I am kind of allergic to other peoples drama. Haha. I enjoy being alone inside the bus. Although sometimes I get easily pissed when hungry. Please?

2. Last 2 weeks ago, I went on an adventure walking until I arrived into a park. Recently I love jogging around on Al Ittihad park. I am contemplating on buying a bike so I can use it it buhaira corniche, which is btw amazing! I enjoy deciding on my own. Although some people might think that at this age why do I still live with my MOM. Baket ba, close kami and I prefer living with Family rather than sharing a room with a friend. Still I consider sharing a room with a friend, if ever my mom decides to retire. but sometimes I'd rather be alone. I am considering the thought of being alone or renting a room for my own. Inshala.

3. Apart from the "others" drama stage, I feel bad when I rant to someone else. Although I miss getting comfort from people, which I am trying to avoid. I just got used to diverting it elsewhere. At the moment food is my divertion. :P At the same time, it made me less patient about others drama. Al Qassimia where I live now makes me feel like I am in Manhattan feels. Although I haven't been there. haha! I just feel cozy and warm here. And we have a good view living at 19th floor flat. Itt has an amazing looking at Megamall from a far.

4. Most of the people I know lives in Dubai. Therefore nobody can attack my weight, haha! Sharjah, has been nice to me, I am exploring the wonders of this place. DO not under estimate this emirate. It has hidden cultures that you need to explore yourself. My next agenda is to buy a bike and go on museum hunting. :)

5. Although traffic is an issue. Traffic here is moving anyhow. It is not as bad as Manila. LOL

So, I am loving every bit of Sharjah. Looking forward to more adventures.I really hope the rent here doesnt go up. As I dont want to transfer into another emirate next to Sharjah, which is Ajman. Please... I love Sharjah :) :) :) ) :) :) :)

Babay 2016!

Good bye 2016, you are one of the best years I have experienced. You taught me how to work hard and stay away from my comfort zone. You taught me forgiveness. You taught me love, kindness, value of great friends and family.

To wrap it up, 2016 made me accomplished things that I never thought I could. I never thought I could reach this stage, this might be called maturity. HAHA.


I wanna thank my mom and my sister for pushing me and encouraging me in times of distress.
I love you both!

My dad who supports me in anyway, I know your puns has a deeper meaning. Thanks for all of your funny jokes. I did get my charms from you. You silly thing. LOL

To all my friends and family thank you all for your love and sincerity.
Although attacking my weight is unacceptable haha!

Looking forward for a better 2017.

Unicorn

Dr. Jul

I ran as fast as I can, She was barely breathing, I had to do CPR. I started with chest compression. I knelt down, I placed one hand at the center of her chest and placed the heel of the other hand on top and interlocked. I pressed down on her chest. I took a deep breath, sealed her nose, blowed steadily into her mouth. She was breathing even before the first aid people came with a defibrillator. She looked at me for a few minutes.

"Hi"

She was wearing a blue speedo swimsuit and her tummy was quite the same as mines. She noticed the similarity, but hers I guess, carries a baby. Mine would be a burger. Haha. She seemed lonely, and we both said. "kamusta". I smiled at her. It was weird looking at her eyes.  It has been a almost a decade. She still have this scary feature that I hate. She started crying, I wanted to hug her but I will always be on the right side. I am taken, she is married, No married hands on me. It was always been me, She asked me if I hate her. I said I would never hate you. "Do you still love me?". Well, I do, but not that kind of love that I used to feel when we were still together. It was more of a child, giving up her favorite doll. Things change. "Why did you left me?" To be honest. I can't remember. I really don't, but I loved you.  The ambulance came, they took her and carried her on the ambulance. I exited in a smooth pace. Suddenly a reporter came and asked my name, profession, etc. She thought I was a doctor. "Just watch youtube."