Why Work Abroad?

Did you ever wonder why some Filipinos chose to work abroad? I asked my colleagues about this over coffee, some of the below comments are just my observation. These colleagues are the yuppies from Ages 23-28. 

1. There's no use putting all your efforts in the Philippines -                                              " I was working in an Engineering firm, my pay was PHP15000, I worked hard and only got a raise after 2 years."

"Walang increase!" 

"I did not feel the increase in my salary at all and there was no health insurance as well. Also the deductions from SSS, Pag ibig, Income tax is taking almost half of my salary - plus deduct the petrol expenses, parking fees in makati is so high, food, I can't even buy the things I want. "    

"Nobody wants to hire me, I feel incompetent in my own country" 

2. I am single parent 

"I disappointed my parents for being a mom at an early age, I need to earn more for my daughter's future and at least send money to my parents to take care of her"

3. I left my heart in Manila (Plus number 2) - WHERE DO BROKEN HEARTS GO

"Iniwan ako ng bf ko of 5 years, pucha parang wala na kong maisip kung hindi umalis and start a new sa ibang bansa, malay mo foreigner pala ang para saakin" 

4. Wanna earn 4x my current MBS (Monthly Basic Salary) - FINANCIAL INDEPENDENCE

"If you were born poor, you want to be rich, I wanna buy what I want but yun nga, hindi naman ako makakabili ng iphone kung server ako sa pinas, diba?" 

"I wanna buy a house, I am sick of renting and moving from one place to another, so I went here to save and earn so I can invest on a condo" 

"Gusto ko mag travel kun saan saan" 

"Mainet jan, mahirap mag commute, ayoko na mag jeep mausok." 

5. I don't want to be in a LDR(Long Distance Relationship)

"Ayoko malayo sa gf ko, hindi ko na kaya ang isa pang taon na wala siya"

"I suspect that my husband will have an affair, he's not bad looking, so I followed him here"

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Some of the yuppies started a plan to stop being an ofw for 5-10 years, some are still working, still searching and wouldn't want to go back in the Philippines. Well at least we have plans. I believe number 4, is the best answer for yuppies like me. We want to be able to reach financial independence. 

We are already considered as modern day heroes, our remittances generates revenues which and should make the Philippines better. I guess somehow, I hope sooner or later the Philippines will turn out to be one of the best cities in Asia again, maybe 2nd to Japan like we used to or maybe better than Japan. We do not expect a salute when we return to the Philippines. We just want to see our families, have a chance to live and grow a better life. And we hope by that time, we can look back and say, we helped our country by our remittances.

Sure. 

Almost

10 days to go - pay day
17 days to go - I am a year older

Can't wait ;D

...................

I feel like nobody understands me today. I feel like everyone is preoccupied with their wants. I could use a shoulder to cry on. In my situation, I only have this blog to vent out. I will pour it all out.

Everything went well until, I felt emotionally drained today. I have been looking at peoples blessings instead of counting mines. I have been envying other's achievements instead of improving mines. I have been withdrawing myself to people cause I cannot seem to catch up with their financial freedom or they might make fun of me. They might make fun of my things, my investments and physical attributes. I have been so fragile to other peoples statements. I have been working hard, so that I could never feel belittled. I have been battling with the people around me. I have been defensive on so many things. I have been pressuring myself to be better. I have been depriving myself. I have been torturing myself. I thought I need to feel devastated to be better. To strive more.

I knew I was doing well. That my insecurities will pass. It will pass. Until I find out that my hard work isn't good enough....

I wish I have all the power in the world to make anyone and everyone happy.

But then again this shall pass. I will TRY to understand. But what can you do if you feel like the unconditional love is coming to an end?

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ANG SAKIT SAKIT. Pero sige lang. Party lang. Hooooo...... ANG SAKIT ;'(

And my head goes BSB

"I Want It That Way"

Yeah

[Brian:]
You are my fire
The one desire
Believe when I say
I want it that way

[Nick:]
But we are two worlds apart
Can't reach to your heart
When you say
That I want it that way

[Chorus:]
Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a heartache
Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a mistake
Tell me why
I never wanna hear you say
I want it that way

[AJ:]
Am I your fire
Your one desire
Yes I know it's too late
But I want it that way

[Chorus:]
Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a heartache
Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a mistake
Tell me why
I never wanna hear you say
I want it that way

[Kevin:]
Now I can see that we're falling apart
From the way that it used to be, yeah
No matter the distance
I want you to know
That deep down inside of me...

[Howie:]
You are my fire
The one desire
You are
You are, you are, you are

Don't wanna hear you say
Ain't nothin' but a heartache
Ain't nothin' but a mistake (don't wanna hear you say)
I never wanna hear you say (oh, yeah)
I want it that way

Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a heartache
Tell me why
Ain't nothin but a mistake
Tell me why
I never wanna hear you say (don't wanna hear you say)
I want it that way
Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a heartache
Ain't nothin' but a mistake
Tell me why
I never wanna hear you say (never wanna hear you say)
I want it that way

'Cause I want it that way

Feeling Exhausted.

#IguessIamnottheeasiestpersontolovetoo. 

Editor 2.5

My biggest fear is the lost of a family member(whether it is death or betrayal). I consider my friends as family. They are family that I chose to be close with. Believe me my dear, I am very exclusive with the people I share my blessings with. I value loyalty. I don't like barkadas, I am the buddy type person. MOST of the time I withdraw myself in a group of people, but I know I can get along with anyone. I am just selective. Carefully selective. Sometimes I even detach myself to my family, which is quite happening right now, cause I know they can hurt me a lot. Whether it is on my capabilities, my physical attributes or my achievements.

Anyway, what I wrote about you was true based on my vast memory on how you treated me. Totoo lahat yun. I didn't lambasted you. Maybe you just need to accept how bad you really were? we were so young, maybe you upgraded/improved your attitude now. I know you are not reading my blog. Cause yes, whoever reads my blog nga naman.

I thought about you more often. I thought I forgot about you. BTW, hopefully this is my last entry under your codename. Why can't I just erase you in my life? Cause I see you everywhere, you even look like one of my friends here that I refuse to get comfortable with. I guess people like you made a huge mark on me. I still pray about you. Don't worry, whoever reads my blog is one hell of genius.

Genius in a way that he/she wants to take my family away from me. Genius in a way he/she wants to hurt me for the second time. Genius, please do not manipulate, you know what I mean. Don't talk sly-ish. I know you really miss me? But please give this as a birthday gift to me. Stay away from my family.

At hindi porke't tahimik, duwag. Minsan, yung mga marunong tumahimik, yun ang matatapang. Kesa, yung maingay na naghahanap ng kakampi. *credits to my college classmate *who apparently hates you *diko siya kakampi, maybe may common grounds lang

#magtigilka #utangnaloobsainyo #kiusap #UTANGNALOOBWAGAKO #gvlangples #smilesandpresspublish #bertingwrites 

Me and my own

I feel like life has been sucked out of me. This year and for the last few months, I have had a strange problem. It it very hard to explain but I will try to write it. I can't stop but want to sleep and withdraw from people, I think it is taking over my life. I don't smoke, drink alcohol that much anymore but anyway I like eating. Haha. I am a strong person, I but this time I think this is quite serious. I don't even know what to do or say. I might be depressed or experiencing some anxiety. I do not like the idea of taking medicines and fear if I go to a psychiatrist I will just be electrocuted or given pills to mask the problem. I must face this. Sorry if I have not explained things the best, but I find it really hard to explain. I feel a bit shamed and down for no reason. I feel really sad. Maybe because....


I am turning 27 next month. I feel like I need to achieve personal and professional fulfillment for the rest of my life.  But I will stay positive.  Below are my daily reminders. 

1. I will sleep early 

2. I won't take work stress at home

3. I will exercise - soon 

4. I will start to lose weight. OMG 

5. I should write daily. 

6. I will save money.

7. I will keep dreaming and pursue my dream JOB 

8. I will not envy others achievements 

9. I will not compare myself to others

10. I will be contented and be happy for what I have

11. I will try not argue with anyone. Apologize when needed. 

12. Keep my cool.

13. Be grateful.

14. Be kind. 

15. Be polite.

16. Thou shall not cheat. 

17. Pray.

18. It is okay to cry.

19. Invest on myself.

20. Get out of my comfort zone. 

21. say thank you.

22. be mad sometimes.

23. learn a new language.

24. love my family.

25. splurge and buy something I really want. 

#breathes #missing #lordhelpme 

7 Possible things your ex lover thought of before letting you GO.

I suddenly thought of writing the above topic because I am trying to continue the novel I have started a few months ago and apparently I am on the 4th chapter. Hooray for day offs!

Anyway I thought of these things - because I was thinking about the what I felt when I broke up with my ex and what my exes may felt before they let me go. My ideas and my thoughts are trying to choke me. I felt hurt not because I want them back. But really, breaking up is devastating. Break ups are really saddening. Have you ever had your heart broken?

For those who are still wounded, please try to accept reality. You just have to let go and move on.

REASONS - Possible Reasons

1. They felt scared committing with you
They might felt that they have been dating the same old vanilla ice cream for years and that person doesn't seem to have plans with him/her in the future. There could be a third party, maybe one of them is scared with commitments. There is also a possibly that maybe, just maybe love isn't really enough.

2. They noticed that they are starting to conceal their true self in the relationship.
They start to feel that they are already lying too much in their relationship, they feel unhappy because they cannot be themselves in their relationship. Maybe they felt that they are not compatible with their partners.

3. They felt depressed and lost for a solution

Because their relationship is too complicated. Probably, his or her family doesn't want him or her and vice versa. One of them is psychotic, abusive or self centered. They might be in a secret relationship, they have money issues, business feuds, another factor RELIGION!

4. They thought of snooping around or contemplating about cheating
They thought of ways to keep you and at the same time to shrug you off by making things more complicated by finding another relationship. Well actually they already found a prospect, it is our call to take them back or not. To fight back or not. But for me, I won't accept cheaters anymore. I cannot live with a partner who can possibly abuse me for the second time.

5. They imagined their life without their partner
And they knew they can survive with out them. They knew they can live without him or her.

6. They kept on praying and hoping their partner will change or their feelings might change
They felt stuck with their partner's attitude problems, goals in life, financially, physical attributes. All the things that are maybe too conditional. They want more than your capacity or definition of love. They may also felt like you will never change, ever.

7. They do not feel good about themselves
They feel like they haven't found themselves and they need time and space to think of their personal well being. Example the guy felt like being an astronaut. She wanted to be a MOWdel. They can't be that person they want to be if their partners do not give support.

As I have said, every break up is devastating. They is no easy way to break someone's heart. Moving on is not a cake walk as well. But if love can fix everything. Then find ways to patch things up. Love is always the answer. sabi ni Kris Aquino... LOVE LOVE LOVE!