Most of you guys don't know my story but if you only knew how broken I was. How painful it was for me to wake up everyday feeling empty. 2012, indeed was a crazy year for me, it gave me too much to remember. During those times, I wouldn't mind if the world really ended.
I fucked up, I was stupid. We grow, we change and we learn. Then you'll have too much standards. You'll eventually know your worth.
When I came here, I never talked to anyone except my mother. She witnessed my worst state and I appreciate all of the kindness and patience she gave me. I admit I was very rude during those days. I was afraid to start a conversation. I was scared to look in peoples eyes. I rarely smiled. I was gaining weight. I started to invest in headsets and listen to hard music. I started to doubt more. I started to shut everyone. I wanted the world to stop revolving until I find my gravity.
I have been running away from the people who cared. I have been destructive that if I have something good, I feel compelled to destroy it. I was a mess.
I know happiness is a choice. I am straight now. JOKE!
Really, this maybe a big surprise but lately I have been thinking that someone better is coming tomorrow and I can't wait to meet her/him. *undertones on HIM.
I may have lose love, but that doesn't mean that I have failed in love, right? Real peace and happiness comes only with open acceptance of what is today. I need to forgive more and accept the verdict of reality without being bitter and sorry for what I have become. I am what I am and I will rise.
We do not lose by loving, we only lose by not learning from our mistakes.
I hope and pray to be more inspired. I must not lose faith.
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MNMKSK - Mahal na Mahal ko sarili ko.
I am a UNICORN! :))
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