9/21/09

lovesick.ME

PUSO: mahal ko talaga siya!

ISIP: alam ko. sobra pa nga diba???

PUSO: alam mo naman pala e! bakit pilit mo pa siyang kinakalimutan!?!?!

ISIP: kasi ayaw na kitang masaktan!

STOMACH: makinig ka naman kay isip! kasi sa sobra mong pagmamahal di kana kumakain!

MATA: tulala ka pa minsan!

LIVER: korek! palagi ka pang umiinom, naaapektuhan kami ni kidney..

LUNGS: ako rin nahihirapan nang huminga.


-joske. i can't sleep...

are u having sleepless nyts as well?....

i dont think so...
dont so i think?
so dont think i..?
think i so dont...?

wrong graming.

september to remember.

please give me some sleep. my body is already tired. niamet

9/15/09

Go, Grow and Glow

its time to let go
let your self grow
and then glow

SO LET ME GO
SO LET ME GROW
AND LET ME GLOW
GO GROW GLOW

beat that.
eat me!?!?!
:))

9/14/09

I miss you

I miss her hilarious smile
I miss her beautiful face
I miss our laugh trips together...

But what i miss most?
is my smile...

whenever i am with her...
whenever i see her...

for the record.
i miss you

9/8/09

NASIRA KO IPOD KO

:(




huhuhu
sad much

veranga goes down. down goes veranga.




The basketball song
-yluj agnarev

run run.
never look back.
it is impossible for you
to feel the same way.

box out. rebound.
i never lost interest
ill catch you until i can
try to be the best to be in your hands

bounce back.
in this game
i used to spend every day
dreaming about you
thinking about you
i admit everytime you walked by
i lose my head.

dribble. pass it on.
it sucks loving you in the dark.
i thought i was over you
i thought i forgotten you already

bounce back.
i used to spend every day
dreaming about you
thinking about you
i admit everytime you walked by
i lose myself.
i lose. i lose.

shoot that ball.
i was too scared to play.
got fouled.
down on my knees.
veranga goes down.
down goes veranga.

free throw.
my second chance.
win or lose.
i gotta do this.
pain in my knees
should now be eased.
theres no turning back.

bounce back.
i used to spend every day
dreaming about you
thinking about you
i admit everytime you walked by
i lose myself.
i lose. i lose.

i admit everytime you walked by
i lose myself.
i lose. i lose.

let's have rematch then.
is it too much to ask?

8/28/09

MY DOGS


sampip and pixielab


Sam used to look like this.
My 8mos shih tzu. He was given by kuya rain(ate's boyfriend).

REASON:Kuya Rain doesnt have time to take care of Sampip. So he chose me to kill the dog. Naa! To take care of the dog. Anyway, my first impression to shih tzus like Sampip(sampid! haha) were. 1. theyre dumb 2. really lazy. 3. really really lazy

But i was wrong Sam is a very smart dog and extremely energetic. In 2 weeks he is already newspaper trained, he knows how to sit in place and wait for his food to be served. He knows how to play dead! But it needs more practice. :)


On the other hand my PRINCESS! pixie the labradog.. my tru lab! :)
She's not overweight anymore! weee!
*clap clap!

I really like big dogs because they are active in everything and this lab really listens to me. She knows everything about me, especially my secrets. I talk to her every single night... So most of the time i do the talkin. MALAMANG :))
She knows when I am sad, upset, mad, happy. Pixie is a REALLY REALLY SMART DOG!


i love hugging this lab. coz i feel safe.



more bondings to come!

I LOVE DOGS!!!!!!!!!

8/17/09

my old philo paper

i got a grade of five with this
philosophy paper
thanks bonjing for helping me
with my gramming!

The image of God in the Feminine image

If the image of God is in the feminine image, how would that change the order of things? The first possibility is that this will empower women in the world. There were many ancient religions that worshipped Goddesses. In Ancient Egypt, Isis, a female, was worshipped. It was during these times that queens ruled the lands. During the gradual shift to a patriarchal community, many unjust judgments were placed upon women in the whole world. For example, there were increased number of ‘witches’ that were persecuted just because for being suspiciously powerful. Women cannot vote in ancient Greece. It can be said that women were overthrown in this period of time. Thus, I believe if God continued to be portrayed as a woman, then there will be less discrimination against women. Women will be more powerful in society, or will have at least more confidence.

The second possibility is that there will be no change in the bias among the equality of women and men. At one point, one gender will be more powerful than the other. People will soon see that God does not have a gender. That God is so powerful that he is beyond gender. I believe that religion was forced to portray God as a man previously because it was the men who were powerful then. If the church portrayed God as a female, then it won’t be accepted by the people and that certain religion will not spread. I believe that today, with majority of the world’s religion having male gods, we are still living in the patriarchal society. However, we are breaking some of the patriarchal norms- we have women presidents, we have women saints, we have women philosophers. Thus, if we grew up to be in a matriarchal society with women gods, then it is a possibility that in the future this matriarchal society will be broken. We will soon have men presidents, men saints, and men philosophers. It is just a cycle because religion has an evolving nature.

However having a mind set of engaging God into a doubtful question of His sexuality and perceiving God using the word FEMININE linked to His image makes me assert that one who questions this has a weak faith in God. God has no sexuality at all, for reasons that no one could ever ought to clarify nor to discuss about.

As for me, putting God in a scenario wherein He is perceived as a feminine or a masculine image is blasphemous. I or any living creature in this world manifests an intolerable act when talking about irrelevant issues about God regarding His sexuality or anything that gives doubt to His image or power for example. For me, expressing or involving Him in such violating manners shows disrespect to God. There are certain things and reasons to support my assertions. First, we don’t contain the things that God has in mind. No one could ever describe or tell what God really is since our words are limited to explain and express God’s sexuality. We are not as powerful as his mind is. We cannot convey the thinking that he has designed for Himself and for everyone else as well. He is a God who has the power of all things. We as humans created by Him have genders and God isn’t as what humans are because He is above all things.

What I am pointing out is that, there are statements or facts that our minds, as humans, cannot reach and one of these facts is the truth about God’s sexuality. It all depends in our faith. The topic is unfathomable since it’s too deep to be measured and so mysterious or complicated that understanding is impossible. It is not right to put God in an image concerning His sexuality since there could never be an explanation and clarification for this. Another thing is based from the book of Genesis. Perhaps, as we notice in our daily prayers, we start it as, “Our Father…” or “God the Son”. For some people they magnify this that our God has a masculine or male image. As for me, this is not clearly true. God demonstrates Himself as something that shows that He is the head of all things; and that, a human He had created is the body. Going back to the book of Genesis, God first created man whom He called Adam. God designed or appointed Adam (a man/ a masculine) as the head of the family. In other words, a man is created to become a leader. But yet, God also created Eve (a woman/ feminine) to whom God appointed to be the person of help to the man in leading His family. Perhaps, as we all witness, the Pope is a man. This should be how God should be seen and realized. “Our Father” when started out in our prayers doesn’t mean that God is depicted as a gender of a male. This just creates an understanding for us that God is the head of everything. A leader. Our savior. The head of the body.

The last thing is about patriarchal society with regards to God. Before, when our country or almost all the countries all over the world living to the distant past, patriarchal society conquered the cities. That is very popular during those times. Perhaps, going back to what I have discussed earlier, a man is portrayed as the head of everything and a woman as the helper to the leader. It was always the man who was in power yet women were all along next to the man. As we can see, our dads and fathers of the family are usually the decision makers, disciplinarians and the ones who rule the family. They are also breadwinners and strive in working to feed his family while wives usually stays at home and attends to the needs of the family members. In making decisions for example, the wives always consults their husbands and husbands always has the final decision whether in favor of his wife’s or contradicts it.

Therefore God has no gender, God is eternal and we are the literal children of God. For me God is not either a male or a female. I don’t want to change what people already know about or God. Maybe it is a call for us to balance our awareness in our God. That can bring innate beauty and spirit in us to empower the women but yet according to God has design for us.

philo class.

What is the basis of authentic love?


Love is defined as a “strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal warm attachment, enthusiasm or devotion”. I believe the basis of authentic love is unselfishness. One cannot be able to attach feelings to another person if she is only thinking only about herself. This is the principle component of love. God has shown unconditional love to mankind when he gave up his only son. God did not become selfish. Another example to this is when Gandhi has shown authentic love for his people when he marched up in front of the British and drove them away in a silent peaceful process. He had thought of the citizens’ future when he did his protests. Our mothers can also be so unselfish that she is so willing to risk her body curves in order to bring in to the world another life. These are examples of real authentic love. One gives up something in the hope that her partner can be able to live a better life.


Authentic love may be based on two factors: on the lover and on the recipient. Love is universal and is a culmination of many different sentiments and gestures. To determine if these actions are indicative of true love it would depend on the two factors. Does the person mean to express love and does the person it is meant for receive and understand it to be love? if both parties have a mutual understanding that the exchange going on between them is equal to love and they feel the desire to give and receive more of this to another, the experience may be called authentic love. This is based on the personal benchmarks of the people involved as to what love necessitates for it to be genuine.

On the other hand, the basis of authentic Love, when referred to the biblical passages, is the love of God. It is a special kind of love that differs from all others in a way that makes that love worthy of note. This could mean that, not one single person or any living creature in this world could triumph over the love that God gave for us. He manifested the real, unselfish, genuine, bona fide and unconditional love to His people by giving His only begotten son to save the people from their sins. As for me, the passion that Christ experienced (dying on the cross) is the basis of authentic love… the AGAPE love. One should understand the saving grace that God has given to all of us for the reason that we would not be here now if not because of God’s sacrifice and love for His people without asking anything in return. It is of great shame and disrespect to God if we are not grateful and appreciative about it.


As for me, what God did for us is something that we cannot do yet He is telling us that we could try to be like Him in our own ways. He made us feel what authentic love is and that He wants us to proliferate love to others as well. Love is the word of God.

Authentic love is depicted in the bible passage found in 1 Corinthians 13: 4-8 which says that: “Love is patient, love is kind, and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things; Love never fails.”

As for me, the bible passage explicates the basis of authentic love. The passage also made me realize that love is not all about emotions because sentiments easily gets the person carried away intended to get prone with failures and LOVE is not all about lacking success, it’s about victory.


DO I MAKE ANY SENSE?!

SEEING YOU is HOPELESS

no beat and no music. YET!
so help me if u want to help me. :))


SEEING YOU IS HOPELESS

Top of the class, outstanding in everything
She carries herself well,
Wins people
Over her
Powerful charisma and confidence,
While I, a player just a baller
Don’t even bother
I linger in the shadows
Stutter whenever I see you
You’re so pretty, guys and girls are
Going after you
You’re so beautiful and I am like a fool

So damn good
I saw the elongated disparity between us
And I could never stand the constant taunts
On how you deserve someone
Much better
Suddenly I whispered I am hopeless
Seeing you is hopeless.

I know you, you know me.
But d’you ever think of me? Malamang hindi.
What if I try to tell you?
All the words
That I could’ve said?
Would you even care to answer?
Are you going to reject me?
Then I guess I won’t
Be singing this

So damn good
I saw the elongated disparity between us
And I could never stand the constant taunts
On how you deserve someone
Much better
Suddenly I whispered I am hopeless
Seeing you is hopeless.
Seeing you is hopeless.

Anyhow
When I first saw you, I felt bleak.
When I first saw you singing, I couldn’t breathe.
Forgive me if I’m trying hard to sing

It’s just that you’re
So damn good
I saw the elongated disparity between us
And I could never stand the constant taunts
On how you deserve someone
Much better
Oh how hopeless...

6/22/09

blog of the super bored.

This summer, for me, as unemployed, I spend more time blogging and at the same time watching TV. Upon watching I fail to notice some of the cartoons in Cartoon Network, Disney Channel, and nickelodeon, Ex. Chowder, Ben 10, Foster’s home for imaginary friends, Mighty B, etc.

BUT As A kid I adored the ff cartoons: :P

I hope this list as fun a trip down memory lane for you all as it was for me.

10 The Huckleberry Hound Show


One of the very first Hanna-Barbera cartoons, beginning in 1958, and lasting 69 episodes. I find it funny when I was grade 2, I love watching this whenever I feel tired at school. woeh :)) stressed. lala :P

9 Yogi Bear


Yogi was one of several Hanna-Barbera characters to have a collar, which allowed the body to be kept static and to redraw just the head in each frame when he was speaking, thus reducing the number of drawings needed for a seven-minute cartoon from 14,000 to around 2,000. He is a friendly bear, who loves to go out on a picnic.
hmm.. haha...

8 The Jetsons


It was Hanna-Barbera’s space age counterpart to The Flintstones. A half-hour family sitcom projecting contemporary American culture and lifestyle into another time period. eeemmmp armpp orrrmpp.. ahrf arhf.. haha GETS?

7 Tom and Jerry


Tom and Jerry centered on a never-ending rivalry between a housecat (Tom) and a mouse (Jerry) whose chases and battles often involved comic violence. Malamang.. aso at pusa e...

6 The Flintstones


The Flintstones is about a working class Stone Age man’s life with his family and his next door neighbor and best friend. yabaa dabba dooo! jetsons counterpart :)

5 Rugrats


The life of a group of toddlers, Tommy, Chuckie, Phil, Lil and Angelica and later Dill is the longest running series on nickelodeon with Nickelodeon with 14 years and entered a star on the Hollywood walk of fame.

4 Hey ARNOLD!


HEY YOU FOOT BALL HEAD! :)) I had a huge crush on Arnold way back, hahah. Arnold is a very smart boy, and has a very cool room! He lives with his grandparents and he is admired by almost everyone especially helga pataki.:))

3 Rocko’s Modern life


Following the wallaby Rocko, and his surreal life in the city of O-Town, the cartoon was laced with double entendres. Sexual innuendo, and written by a guy who had little to no experience with cartoons or kids! In my opinion Rocko is a bit... unlucky! hahah or i should say the typical "swerteng malas character" :))


2 XMEN


I love this cartoon.. I love wolverine, he's my idol :)) I fancied cyclops. hot boy with goggles, snorkling googles? hahaha
nada


1 Scooby-Doo, Where Are You!



MY FAVORITE!

Scooby-Doo, Where Are You! is the first incarnation of the long-running Hanna-Barbera Saturday morning cartoon Scooby-Doo. It premiered on September 13, 1969 at 10:30 a.m. EST and ran for two seasons on CBS as a half-hour long show. Scooby-Doo, Where Are You! was a breakaway hit for Hanna-Barbera and CBS, who quickly introduced similar cartoons to accompany Scooby-Doo: Josie and the Pussycats, The Pebbles and Bamm-Bamm Show, The Funky Phantom, Speed Buggy, Jabberjaw, and Captain Caveman and the Teen Angels.

5/17/09

whatta bout?

This blog is about complaints. I’m not really a good writer so forgive me for any grammatical blunders or just try to bear with meh. Now what is a complaint? According to Wikipedia it is an expression of displeasure, such as poor service at a store, or from a local government, etc.

Why do we complain when we are guilty? Why? WHY?

We complain when we think that we do not deserve what happened. We usually act as if justice was supposed to be in our edge. The worst part of complaining is wherein we make allies to feel protected. It’s like hiding in your mommy’s skirt, when you’re afraid of thunders. It’s like crying over spilled milk. And mommy on the other hand in spite of everything WILL continue to fight for her son/daughter. I like the feeling of being protected even if I really did something wrong.

Going back to complaints, after what happened we tell the whole world how bad the “service” went. Then we tend to be so arrogant/proud/conceited that we do not really deserve to be mistakenly “rejected”.

But come to think of it, we SOMETIMES complain when things are completely right.

I mean things are really good in God’s hands; acceptance is the only key to rub it in.

So GUILTY people, you really have nothing to groan about. It’s almost as though complaining is a God given gift to humans.

I never meant to be offensive; I am just tired of explaining and complaining.

PLUS, if you react too much on this blog you’re so defensive, it wouldn’t be.. you’re just sensitive..

haha

COMPLAINTS? HIT ME!

5/9/09

guys dont forget to greet your mommy tomorrow!

ADVANCE HAPPY MOMMY DAY!

THE NOISE

Now what has fallen where,
OH MY
world..........................?

-Henry Braun

3/5/09

grad gift for berts. ples?




1. WANT CHEVROLET CORVETTE Z06 :)

BLACK
i really want this
2. Travel abroad ALONE(Thailand, Italy, Japan, Antartica)
with pocket money. hmmm..
-it'l help me to unwind
3. Travel with barkada :)
with pocket money
4. New corporate clothes
5. My own space.
6. New toy dog.
-Pixie's playmate
7. Omega Watch (hmmmm...)
8. SIMS 2 installer. :P
9. anti virus
10. hard drive




























2/15/09

poooh... tata!

12pm, near avr d, last thursday.
we(snow white) were walking fast to go to SAR.

then.
i saw a bear. pooh bear.
i didnt like what i saw.
he wasn't wearing his pants again.
i wanted to puke.

he was smiling upon seeing me.
as if i did another crime.
but the truth is.
he is commiting a crime.
and.
i am a threat to his career eherm crime.
that's WHY!!!

i mean, lately now that ive heard about it.
i dont really care about it pooh.
i have no interest to interfere with
your honey.
i dont like your honey.
its all yours.

pooh, you cant manipulate me.
i know how these things work.
as of know you disgust me.
and i cant wait to finish this semester.
i see nothing wrong.
i didn't do anything wrong.
as far as i know.
i am keeping my mouth shut.

if i could turn back time.
i'd rathe go into another route.
even if it takes me 1000steps to reach SAR. i'd do it. wag ka lang makita.
except on WF. god i have to.

pooh that day.
you told me your gonna fail me and my groupies.
and i was like.
WHAT? the hell do you want from me?
*close tayo???

grr! pooh!
W/F morning sucks seeing you.
god you disgust me.

who's your daddy????

Tatay na Mayabang: Ako'y tunay na natutuwa sa aking panganay na lalaki. Nagtapos ng Business Administration sa UP at mayroong MBA galing sa Harvard. Ngayon, e Presidente siya ng isang malaking Corporasyon. Sa yaman niya e, binigyan niya ng isang Mercedes at isang BMW yung isang kaibigan niya.

Tatay na Mayabang Rin: Ako'y galak na galak sa bunso kong lalaki. Nagtapos ng Medicina sa UP-PGH at nag Residency sa Sloan Kettering. Ngayon, e Director for Research siya at kandidato para sa Nobel Prize. Mayaman din siya. Biro mo, yung isang kaibigan e binigyan niya ng apartment sa 5th Avenue sa Manhattan.

Tatay na Nahihiya: Ako'y medyo disappointed dito sa kaisaisa kong lalaki. Nangyari pa e bakla at binabae. Hindi bale nang malandi, e kung sino-sino pang lalaki ang mga kinkasama. Hairdresser siya pero mukha namang mahusay makisama. Yung kaniyang BMW at Mercedes, at yung tinitirhan niyang apartment sa 5th Avenue e bigay lahat ng mga "boypren" niya.


ehe. funny.

1/28/09

winnie the pooh

let's cut to the chase
winnie the pooh is a chubby chubby chubby bear...
alright... you may look cute for some people..

but in my eyes you're no CUTIE PIE!

ughhh...
pooh! you disgust me!
please wear your pants.

-BASTOS

1/26/09

eagle eye

I am very sure that he was an Atenean. He was wearing a white shirt that states that being an atenean is COOL. He was about my size and was still wearing his ID inside the church. I want to call him the conceited Atenean guy or the PERFECT Atenean guy.


He sat in the middle, on his left- his best bud; on his right I guess, his girl friend. He stared at me upon entering the church. Then he started doing the sign of the cross. I didn’t feel violated because first, I automatically set my mind that he was probably looking at my shirt”Complaining LOUDLY is much more fun than suffering in silence”. Second, He might have thought that I was his relative or his long lost friend and lastly, it was my first time to step foot in that church and maybe he found me unusual "the newbie".


After 2 minutes he looked behind, again looking at me as if I was a criminal. He was sharp, like an eagle. As if I don’t belong in that church. The way he stared at me made me feel like I don’t belong in this world. It’s like I don’t deserve to be loved.


I laughed silently, imagining that he hates lesbians because his ex gf might have left him for a girl.

I laughed silently, seeing my self beside him, being critiqued that I am better looking than him.


I wanted to confront him.

I wanted to ask the runner up why he was staring at me.

I wanted to hire an archer to strike him in the head with an arrow.

But I was in the house of god. I turned into serious mode. I tried to ignore him. I closed my eyes.

I cried silently, I prayed silently and asked god to bless this Atenean.


I will never forget that way he stared at me. That perfect blue guy that made me feel blue the whole day.

who's berts urdaneta?


*spotted. berts urdaneta when bored.

bim August 23rd, 2008

i am no good writer. someday i will. :)

anyway this blog is for everyone inlove. because i am inlove.

_____TOINK5_____

B-eing with her makes me feel alive. I love the way she looks at her self whenever i stare at her. All of a sudden she’ll take her mini mirror from her jungle bag, looks at the mirror or any mirror near her and will start asking our friends if she’s ugly. haha. you are always beautiful in my eyes. :) I can still remember when we went to Hundred Islands and she was so scared that our boat will turn turtle. hihihi.. I love supporting her bonjing ideas and telling her that she’s "ULOL" in public. I learned to eat dessert with rice at the same time. I just love being with her inside her lovelife car named KORNS. I always appreciate her parking skills because she never scratched her mugs from the gutter(tama ba spelling).

I- love to be her friend. I love to make her smile to death (labas gills, tulo laway). I love to feed her and bring her lunch after rizal class. I learned to appreciate jologs stuffs (Ever Commonwealth movies, toms world, tropical hut). With her I learned to defend myself or be vocal to react when people hit me. I became a wonderful person with her I SWEAR.

M-ost beautiful thing that ever happened to me. Without her there will be no bimbay, bimboy=bonjing, taba, darlengbem, boningmyloves. No more 168 shopping, no more chicken tenders, rodics tapa, jolibee and movies everyweek. And if ever one day she thought of leaving me. Ill assure her that i will always be her friend and envy the man that will replace me.

i love u everyday :)

the unpredicted me August 16th, 2007

i tried, but it’s not enough. the more i focus, the more I loose it. i just can’t seem to get it straight. i know theres no use lookin back. but it makes me loose myself and break down. a lot of my friends had been working on how they want their lives to be. i do get envy with what they are right now and still not loosing hope that one someday, i will reach that certain goal in my life.

i’m in deep pain…….

i dont know why or how can i ease this feeling.. i just recently gave up many things right now… i don’t consider it quiting! because when things get tough, moving on is the only best way to do and must look forward and see the real beauty of life. tama diba? what makes you happy! just follow it… people usually want what is best for them. we intend to follow whatever things that will make us happy. no matter how dumb the result is. but howcome following whatever makes you happy sometimes lead to sadness?? its deceiving…. it hurts like hell… its frustrating… but whatever happens… I must remember that happiness deals from your very own decision. I control it! I live with it! I have to deal with it!