Starting from today, my blog will be different.

Yesterday, I had a word with my partner and told her that I write best when in agony. To be honest I never thought of making this blog as a source of anyone’s information for self-help. I intended to use this blog as a tool to move on from my past / bad experiences. This is my ranting space. I own this. I love reading it and writing on it. 

This blog helped me release my inner beast whenever I felt I had to speak up or when I forgot to speak during an incident. I even wrote my coming out post in this blog.

Anyhow, I would like to refurbish and reintroduce my blog, this blog, akosiberts, by making it as a daily/weekly/monthly “experience” with a reflection to be more positive in any situation. This blog will not be biblical, as I do not want to tackle any religious beliefs that might contradict any situation. Partly I am not really religious, but more of spiritual. Although, I may put some biblical verses occasionally.

To wrap this up. I do hope you can relate to my future posts and learn from it wherever you may be.J

#happykidfromsharjah

PIKON AKO. NAPIPIKON NA AKO.

May nakapag sabi sa akin na ang pinapatupad ng Phil Health ay maikukumpara sa isang robbery in broad daylight. Gusto kong magalit dahil ang dating contribution na PHP 2,400 kada taon ay ngayong magiging 3% ng iyong monthly basic salary. 

Nung kinocompute ko ang halagang babayaren ko aabot siya ng PHP21600 at nabasa ko pa na tumataas annually ang mandatory payment na ito. Ayoko na mag compute dahil may binabayaran pa nga akong property.

Gusto kong maging optimistic lalo na sa nangyayare ngayon. Dahil ang iba nating kababayan ay kasalukuyang NO WORK / NO PAY NGAYON. Ang iba pa nga ay nangangailangan talaga ng ayuda. 

Speaking of AYUDA, wala kaming natanggap. Kami pa naman ang modern day hero ika nga ng bansa, kami pa ung less priority. Anyhow. Grateful pa din ako kasi ung kumpanya ko ok pa sa ngayon at ay ipon ako kahit papaano. 

Pero sige, anu nga ba mapapala namen sa mandatory contribution??? 

Mabuti yung mga employed sa Pilipinas hati ang empleyado at employer sa contribution.

Samantalang kaming OFW papasanin mong mag isa. Sa isip ko lang, bakit ko ipapasan ang hospital bills ng mga pasyenteng hindi naman nagcocontribute sa pondo? tska bakit sila nakakaboto! dapat talaga tax payers lang nakakaboto dibaaaa??!  

Isa pa, kaming mga OFW hindi naman nakikinabang sa Philhealth dahil wala naman KAMI JAN! 

HALLER! Bakit ko babayaran ng Philhealth magagamit ko ba dito yaaaaan?! Magagamit ko ba yan pag umuwe ako? ipprioritize ba kaming OFW jan??? WHAT! answer!!!

Pangalawa, meron naman akong health insurance dito! Fully comprehensive pa. Anhin ko yan???

Hay Phil health, Phil Govt. at this point gusto ko si Pangulong DU30 sumagot. 

Tatay Digs, Gatasan ba kami ng pondo? wag naman ganon. Gusto ko pa mag ka family, gusto ko pa mag ka anak.(Drama aside). 

Bakit di kayo gumawa ng ibang paraaan? bawasan ang pondo ng kanilang mga opisina para ipondo sa Philhealth. Bakit naipasa ang batas na yan na walang konsultasyon sa mga OFW???? 

Maganda sana ang layunin na ito, para gumanda ang Health Care system ng pinas, pero hindi maganda ang paraan ng pagkalap ng pondo.

Ang masaklap pa nito, iinteresan ang di mo nabayarang contribution at may penalty pa. Higit sa lahat di ka bibigyan ng OEC kung hindi ka nakabayad.

SO AYON? Bakit parang kasalanan namen??? 

nakakapikon. pikon ako, minsan nahihirapan nakong maging proud to be pinoy. 

Bbye Social Media

Sad and bothered to say that I have to let go of all of my social media accounts.

I guess for now, or in an indefinite time. I suppose I might open them occasionally. I will surely miss all of them.

The reasons for leaving would be the ff.

1. I have become addicted to them and finally decided to log out. Occupies my whole being kind of thing. 

2. As someone so dear to me told me that I have become an attention seeker using my "Social media platforms". It upsets me, 100%. Given the fact that my accounts wasnt even used to take advantage of anyone or flirt anyone or even contact an old flame. Jeez. Always, unruly and not fair judgement. btw. hurtful.

3. Deeply annoyed with tiktok posts lol

4. I have forgotten my priorities, like laundry, bills, cat food, groceries etc. #slightlysarcastic

5. it upsets me 😆 in so many ways...

So bye for now. 😣 people can still call me on my mobile 😆 ok im sociable enuf. ok yes. ugh.

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Hostage Taker in GH - Happened 2 days ago.

IMO. 

First of all, kudos to our PNP team, I recall the hostage crisis way back and to me this in an improvement. 

No one was harmed. No comedy on responding. 

Second, we need to learn as Filipinos from this event is that it can happen again. I suggest the govt(meow) to make a move or create standards for every business establishment to adopt a protocol on how to keep their employees safe in all terms(Financially, Mentally, Physically, Musically, all of the adverbs you can find)

This guy is a victim of our poor system, struggling against capitalism and corruption. He's fed up. He simply wanted to be heard. However, irrespective of the circumstances of this guy's dismissal. He shot someone and took hostages. This should not be allowed to platform any grievances in public after surrender.

My emotions are honestly, mixed between a sad reflection of our society and in rage, which makes me want to validate my intent to stay overseas. I dont know why I feel guilty but he couldve gone to Idol Raffy Tulfo instead of making a scene. If I was rich, daughter of an affluent actor/actress/politician/philantropist/genius billionare, I could've taken this person into consideration and hire him. There's this part of me that want't to heal others with empathy. My imagination. 

To wrap this up, I hope an pray that everyone can look at things positively when the shit hits the fan. Instead of blaming others, why don't we think of ways to mitigate. Be grateful. Plan. Work for it and pray for it. After all we are all humans. I still hope MR Security Guard is in a safe place, also I am sure he is facing some serious offences for his drama. What the hell is wrong with 2020. 

#prayfortheworld 

When someone betrays you.

It is a reflection of their own character. People characterize other people by their actions.

Today I realized, that someone so close to me, transformed into someone I could hate. I sat and watched this "show" a couple of times now, and maybe, I am still waiting for it to return to its original state. I might be indenial as I ignore the facts. Anyhow, I am getting annoyed now. I can take a joke, but I do not like is disrespect disguised by a joke.

Just because youre in "it" now, youre too cool enough to do whatever you want? GANON? whatever happened to brotherhood. Did you ever thought that you might hurt other people?

I am caught in between ignoring your full existence or punching your face to make you land on earth. Laki na ng ulo mo. Id rather ignore you for now. So go on and live your lie. If i were you I wouldnt live in yout truth either.

#talkshit #ivalueloyalty

Anyare.

So what happened? Somebody asked.

I could’ve stayed as a friend. I spent 3 years, with her and as far as I can remember I have failed to choose her every day. I could’ve not let myself fall for her. I have read this quote that you deserve a love that speaks to your soul, I mean a love that feels like home and then that thought escalated to – there will come a time that you’ll wonder if there was someone who has really made to love you, better.

To be brutally honest, I never thought of having someone else but her. I was purely in love with her flaws and imperfections. I settled everything with her, that I will have a family with her. I will have kids with her. However, every time we fight, she will always have the final say and she would always say that there will be someone else better than her. So I can definitely shut our relationship. Her tone, when upset, would always be, 90% of her insecurity and 10% is all about how she can wash her hands when she was really the one to be blamed.

She would always want me to choose her, even if she was the one causing the stress and drama to us. She would always find ways to make my success a dreadful feeling. It was always really, negative and too toxic. It was damn hard to love her in long distance.

I would always decline the accusations that there is no one that I am interested of. Until one day I realized. She might be right, it was a fool’s task, daily for me to fight hard for her and make myself stay with her. I can’t remember when or how, but there was a time I cried myself to sleep and I was only occupied on myself. I did want to be with her, I really wanted to choose her, but months passed I started to choose her, less. But I still stayed.

I am always grateful for the companionship. I had dreams. Etc laughter and all. It was obvious that she became reserved. Which I always felt that I do not deserve. I also noticed that I can’t be me when I am with her. I do not understand if it was immaturity of me or she’s too matured for me. Until there was a friend, who seemed to enlightened me, who seemed to love me as I am. She showed me that I was not to be blamed in our messy relationship. It was so easy to be with her She gave me the attention I never had with Ms 3 years. I can be me with her, we hare the shame jokes and puns. We share issues without any hesitation. There was no sugar coating. I was the priority.

HOWEVER. That friend. Wasn’t really in love with me. She didn’t choose me. She was immature in some areas of her life. It was too complicated with her. I guess it was meant to be broken. It made me ask myself.

Why Am I choosing my partner today? if we cannot find any answer, we dig deeper, we all have our disconnected and sumpong days. If the heart says, I just freaking do. Then stay and be happy. But do not let anyone, lead you into something that they cannot commit. Do not ever stay because you feel like nobody can ever love you anymore. Do not also, never ever, beg someone who doesn’t see your worth.

To summarize it all. I hope we all find our happiness. Because I know. I have.