St. Jude

When I was a kid, my mom took me to St. Jude in Manila for us to pray for our visa approval. I was 10 or maybe younger. We went there because we have some issues with documents. I remember praying outside the church. Granted.

A few years after I forgot about that wish. I forgot about St. Jude. 

Until I saw a St. Jude pamphlet when I reached high school. Then I remember being hopeless and really lonely. I didn't know what I wanted. I suddenly said "Dear St. Jude I want a girl friend"

I was crying when I was reading the prayer, I thought it was bad thing to ask for something that I was really unsure. Then I met my first love. :) Granted. 

When I was 4th year High School, there was this classmate who's a great 3 pointer. She was a great player too, I prayed so hard that I wanted to be MVP. :) Granted.

Fourth wish, when I came here in Dubai, I've been a mess. I wanted the job that best suit me and now I got it. :) Granted. 

Dear St. Jude,

I firmly believe in you. When I was hopeless and when things are despaired for me, you always answered me. So If ever that I bear or adopt a boy child, I will name it after you.

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SELFISH KA

Dear you,

Sometimes the solution is not to change the CIRCUMSTANCE but to CHANGE our ATTITUDE about that circumstance. If you can't change, then you don't GROW and it seems that you haven't reach the "himalayas" of changing-yourself-for the sake of friendship/love whatever.

You cannot control every feelings and emotions of a person. Thank you for deleting us in every contact you have. That was really cool as we are very worried when you walked out of the sunny sands of Hatta.

You are going to be stuck with the same situation forever with that selfishness and I WON'T APOLOGIZE FOR BEING RIGHT. I tried to be the nicest when I was about to be furious, but you crossed the line. A very thick line. If you wish to leave and shut everyone out, then go. Tell everyone you are the victim and besides you are good at walking away with problems right?

Let me remind you, I don't chase and tolerate ungrateful people.

Have a great life.

Berting

INSULTO 101 - Cool ka lang.

How will you answer someone in the following situations given?
WHAT IF SOMEONE INSULTS YOU AND TELLS YOU THIS:

1. Ang arte mo!
-Ulol?

2. Mas matalino naman ako sayo.
-Ah ganon, mas maganda naman ako sayo. 

3. Crush ako ng ex mo.
-Panget na pala ng taste niya 

4. Am bobo mo pala sa History!
-Mali ka jan ate, NO! 

5. Bilisan mo naman!
-Wag mo akong madaliin, hindi nagmamadali ang mga gwapong tulad ko!

6. Ang sungit mo!
-pwede ako magsungit pogi ako eh! 

7. Gusto mo ng away?
-Stay away from me, you don't know what I am capable of doing

8. Takot ka ata sakin eh?
-Mejo, panget ka kasi

9. Mas mahal niya ko!
-linoloko mo sarili mo

10. Ambababa naman ng grades mo!
-may love life kasi ako, ikaw kasi wala, panget ka kasi

WHAT IF SINABI SAYO ITO NG CRUSH MO?

1. crush kita.
-Alam ko na yan

2. Di kita mahal.
-Sabi mo lang yan

3. Mahal na kita.
-Anu ngayon?

4. Pakopya naman ng assignment.
-Wala din akong assignment

5. Crush ko yung friend mo.

-Bagay kayo, parehas kayung shunga

6. Pwede patabi sa upuan mo?
-Baka magselos GF ko

7. Cute mo magsmile.
-I know right

KAPAG PARENTS MO ANG NAGSABI SAYO NITO?

1. Umuwi ka ng maaga.

-Mag overnight na lang ako

2. Magaling ka pala sumayaw?
-Keri lang 

3. Hindi ka pwedeng pumasok sa klase.
-Sure! Graduate na ako. haha :p

4. Bawal ka maggirlfriend/boyfriend.
-No way! 

5. Bakit ba mainit ulo mo?
-Daming tanong e

6. Bakit ngayon ka lang?
-Traffic sa edsa

7. Bakit ang baba ng grades mo?
- para di nyo mahalata na genius ako!

Flattered ng 3/4 - That's My Tomboy :))

Kinamusta ko si JB at jan napunta ang usapan. HAHA! Thanks Brader. #facepalm

One shirt. Five Pants.

What to do? But I don't know which pants will I wear? Help? HOHO 

I Must Not Lose FAITH.

Most of you guys don't know my story but if you only knew how broken I was. How painful it was for me to wake up everyday feeling empty. 2012, indeed was a crazy year for me, it gave me too much to remember. During those times, I wouldn't mind if the world really ended.

I fucked up, I was stupid. We grow, we change and we learn. Then you'll have too much standards. You'll eventually know your worth.

When I came here, I never talked to anyone except my mother. She witnessed my worst state and I appreciate all of the kindness and patience she gave me. I admit I was very rude during those days. I was afraid to start a conversation. I was scared to look in peoples eyes. I rarely smiled. I was gaining weight. I started to invest in headsets and listen to hard music. I started to doubt more. I started to shut everyone. I wanted the world to stop revolving until I find my gravity.

My sanity was focused on how I have been hurt too many times, you wouldn't imagine how much forgiveness It took me. How many headsets was broken. How many times I have cried inside the shower. Today everything seems to be funny. I know. I am glad I have reached this point.

I have been running away from the people who cared. I have been destructive that if I have something good, I feel compelled to destroy it. I was a mess.

I know happiness is a choice. I am straight now. JOKE!

Really, this maybe a big surprise but lately I have been thinking that someone better is coming tomorrow and I can't wait to meet her/him. *undertones on HIM.

I may have lose love, but that doesn't mean that I have failed in love, right? Real peace and happiness comes only with open acceptance of what is today. I need to forgive more and accept the verdict of reality without being bitter and sorry for what I have become. I am what I am and I will rise.

We do not lose by loving, we only lose by not learning from our mistakes. 

I hope and pray to be more inspired. I must not lose faith. 

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MNMKSK - Mahal na Mahal ko sarili ko. 

I am a UNICORN! :)) 

My Almost Perfect Plan

"Bro, sundo mo ko bukas, I brought my car sa Casa, please" I was holding a ukelele. Trying to play something amazing.
"Sige, Bro, may sasabihin ako"
"Anu un? wag lang masyado Math."
"I don't like Ira anymore."
"Why?"
"She's fine at first, kaya lang I find her inappropriate, mejo jumologs kasi"
"Sinabi mo ba sa kanya?" I felt the same way actually, I just didn't know how to tell it to my best buddy.
"Basta ayoko na sa kanya"
"Tell her you like someone"
"I kindaaaa.. like your store manager."

"Abby?! She's OK. Yeah you can date her." I sounded defensive. I was starting to be confused with Abigail and Sofia. I think I kind of like her too. Sofia was busy these past few weeks. I haven't heard from her, although she texts me most of the time. I reply very late, I sometimes intent to do that, so she ends up calling and being praning. We were in a relationship status of don't ask don't tell the pakiramdaman mode. In other words, she is not consistent.

On the other hand, I am with Abigail, everyday and we get along well. We communicate without words, just gestures or I should say, mental telepathy. It's amazing how we don't argue inside my shop. Actually both of them are totally amazing.

"I think Abby likes you."

"You think so? I don't know, I can't and I don't know what I want for a partner for now. I am not stuck naman with you know." I was being loose. I don't want her to be disheartened but yes, I know Abigail likes me. But I don't know why I feel unsure about her. I think it's because I thought she was straight.

"Of course. Sobrang deleted na siya, I remember your moving on stage. Bwahah!"

"Thanks Nards, don't remind me. What would I do widawchu, yung totoo, I am confused with Abigail and Sofia. I don't want to play with someone's heart anymore. I think I am too old for games. Both of them deserves someone."

"Hey, just take it slow. Pero, I think I like Abby for you."

"OK. You think Sofia is too sosyal and fragile?"

"Ewan ko ba, she seemed like hindi mo siya mapapakain sa favorite carinderia mo sa Sta. Mesa."

"Great IDEA! I'll bring them both at Chef Brown's Carinderia. Let's see. Hmm!"

"Abby will get this."

"Let's see"

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Are you busy on sunday? - SEND 

Sofia: Not really. Wanna got out? 

Yes. Can I take you to my favorite store in Sta. Mesa. Please don't wear anything fancy. You might me kidnapped from me. Haha - SEND 

Sofia: Pick me up at my house? What time ba?

I'll pick you up by 5pm. Bring you home by 8. That OK?-SEND 

Sofia: Any color coding? haha! Please wear Orange.

I don't like orange :s Blue na lang? -SEND

Sofia: Black? 

Mainet pag black. White? -SEND 

Sofia: Pink? 

I give up OK OK Pink it is. -SEND

Sofia: yay! Pink wins! 

Sunday, it's a date. fyi don't wear a gown or a dress :P just casual fish ball get up

Sofia: copy! :D Sundate it is. 

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I wanna take you to my favorite food store in Sta. Mesa on sunday? Can we leave Arian and Kelvin for the whole morning? -SEND 

Abigail: Sure boss I'll instruct them tomorrow. That way sa sunday we can leave maybe sa morning and hopefully return after lunch?

Great. I'll pick you up 10am. -SEND 

Ok. Thanks boss :) :) :) :) :) Pwede mag emoticons.

Haha :p See you. - SEND 

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Multitasking at its finest. I told Nards about my itinerary. She was laughing at my plan. She knew I could make it by schedule.

"You are such a great badass, ok continue that, kasi naniniwala ako na kinukuha ni lord agad agad ang mababaet"

"Hey, I am not cheating naman diva?" I threw a pillow at Nards.

"No you're not but you forgot about something."

"Anu un?"

"Wala kang car. Asa CASA."

"Ay shit. Peram si Gunter?"

"Shit ka, pagasan mo ah"

"No problem"