Dreams About Teeth Falling

I have been dreaming about my teeth falling these past few days and Google is such a great portal to be informed about my dream interpretation. I have dreamt of my teeth falling and rotting constantly.

 

So basically when I was reading one article from one website after another, I generally realized that I am again over thinking about everything. It is normal cause I am not getting any younger and I still feel like my mental age is still 18. I am not really like this - I could point out that maybe it is because I grew up facing hard situations and diverting it into a slow paced okay results. But I am just a walking ambassador of positive vibes. I always have smart and easy way to get out of a hard situation or any situation. Well for some it sounded stubborn-ish, but really I am just saying that I have smarter ways than any other genius could do. Like to me, there will always be a smarter solution into a difficult problem. You lose, you win.

I wanna be lost.

But maybe this dream is just a phase in my life that saying "Live and face your fears".  Dreaming about this could also mean that something is happening in my present life that needs to be focused on. Thus I am very sensitive in my own development; am I growing? experiences? challenges? am I even pushing beyond my usual limits and discover new things or ways?

 

I am the captain of my life. Upon weighing the dream meanings in both positive and negative sides. I have been asking myself. What do I feel? 

I feel anxious. I wanna go home. I feel sad. I feel home sick. I am bored. I feel old. I need more money. I got hired. WEE (undertones). I miss my gf. I miss mom. I miss ati. I miss Pixie. I miss my old dad. I miss my friends. I miss ze Philippines. I hate the Philippines. Haha. I am hungry. I feel sad. I want crispy pata. Gusto ko tumaya sa lotto. Mananalo ako sa LOTTO!

There goes my interpretation. :)) 

One step "atat" time kasi Jul. LOL

SOA

Rewind last February, a friend told me to watch this movie. She actually went wild sharing her thoughts about the movie. She was also sharing about her true love, how hard it was to move on and that guy will always have a place in her heart. Anyway the movie wasn't so tacky at all. The actors and actresses were great.

Except for the looks, ha. I felt I was like Piolo on the crushed/loser part of the story. There will always be this one ex you loved so much that letting it go would be like letting go of your life as well.

"I almost died, and everyday I wished I did" Ok that line hurt me.

On the other hand, Toni was ambitious. I am not really ambitious. Toni left Piolo. It took four years for Piolo (Marco) to get restoration and success. It was a great movie to ponder on. The movie was a feast of honesty for my dying motivation. It has been a year and a half, I am still a trash in my own wrath. I felt the urge of feeling guilty having to watch the movie with my gf. It was somehow patterned with me. Except for the ala Toni coming back for Piolo, na uh, I don't she's ever coming back(Me and my Ex).

History vs Today. Do not worry about the people in your past, there is a reason why they didn't make it in your future. But just like any other human beings, you just can't help flipping the old pages of past.

Quotable line "My love is greater than your fears".

Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray hard that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.. =)

Remember, we do not lose by loving, we only lose by not learning from our mistakes.

It's Okay to be selfish

Never forget who was there with you when no one else was.

If you are saying YES to others make sure you are not saying NO to yourself(Paulo Coelho).

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I forgot who was I talking to but he/she said that when you are lacking or you want something, you should give to others. That way the favor would be returned to you. The science or logic of this would be like you are sending a message to the universe to be able to receive future abundance. If you are spiritual, you'd rather explain this issue in the most biblical manner like saying that God hears everything and he will surely give you something in return soon. Just pray.

Sure it feels good to help. I love to help and sometimes it make me feel plentiful and grateful for the things I have.

So, I am a nice person (been working on being less nice). People ask me for things a lot. Regardless on how the request is or how busy I am. Just a mere fact that it has been asked of me, I feel obligated and obliged to drop anything and help. This sickness, this comes a high price of my own depletion and self neglect. Sometimes I feel like I could've been a doctor or a nurse cause I care a lot and I tend to forget about myself.

I am never afraid to help. In fact I'd love to help as long as I can. Except on monetary issues. I will help you in anything but I won't and I can't lend money(My golden rule). I guess I learned a lot from my father who loves to "help" and lend money. Because he always ends up scratching his scalp for not getting anything in return. Okay, he's out of the story, the thing here is. I just don't like lending money. Money to me is such an evil thing. It ruins everyone in any aspect.

I can help others by giving donations, advises, opinions and time. I make sure I wont step in anyone's foot. I try to joke around, make things comical cause I believe in happiness is the best medicine. When I help people I make sure they wont abuse that kindness I give. That's why I limit my friends. I limit expectations, attachments and care.

All in all, I just happen to find out that I am going through a phase where my foundation is a bit unstable, and I have to be selfish and get myself stabilized before I can assist others. I am trying to think clearly how my do-not-help-anyone policy fit into this "it's okay to be selfish". Oh yes, I am not gonna move. I'm going to be selfish, and say no if I need to.

Do I make any sense? I don't care. Jeez. 

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Terrible things happen to good people every day.

Consequentially I am not one of the good people.

I am one of the terrible things.

-Marianna Page 

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Hello Unicorn, Why the alligator face?

Please do not be hard on yourself. I see you're frustrated again. You can cry it all to me? I know that there's this consistent battle between your heart and head. All the time. I know you are losing faith again. Do me a favor, don't hate yourself cause I love that person you hate so much.

Don't ever give up on yourself, I would never give up on you or us. Never ever give up trying to start and to live out your faith because of being anxious about the future. I am afraid too and I am not leaving. I will try to make all your wrongs right and to heal your hurts. Let me help you against the battles in your head. Do not waste time tearing yourself. Enough of that. I love you no matter what you said and done.........................................