How is me?

I can't sleep. It's been 6 months since I came here. A lot of things happened and still coping from one of the biggest nightmares I ever had. I know. More time please. It's like a fairy tale turned horror scene and dramatic unicorns. You have no idea what to think of. All you have to do is survival.

Ever since I left MNL I have been very skeptic on things that could hurt me. From kitchenwares to the people I love, I surrounded my self with things to do. Laundry, Clean this that, Jogging, Basketball and I even enrolled myself in a Ballroom Class just to refrain myself from pity partying. 

Music helps by the way. To be specific the songs of Linkin Park helped me with my heartaches from despair and acceptance.

I assume that these things happens when you lose trust. I left MNL because I believe I couldn't start a new back there. I left unplanned and being unplanned is no not me. When I came here, I decided to forgive and forget. Forgive myself from being stupid and forget that all of them existed. They don't know the whole story. There will always be another side of the story. It's unfortunate that I wasn't heard and she was more favorable. But then again, there's no use looking back, she's happy now. Let go and let GOD (wow this is so not me). 

My career is much better here, it's just that we are few in the office and mistakes are easily seen. I've been drowning myself with work. My colleagues call me boss these days. Because I wan't to be better than before. But when idleness hits me, I keep asking myself what the hell do I want? 

A friend told me "babe, nangangayayat ah"

My answer was "walang nag aalaga e"

Ended up teary eyed. The fear of being alone and not wanted is one of that things that worries me. I must keep myself busy. Busy from working 9 to 10 hours and forgetting to eat lunch. This is so July 2k13.

I've dated some, but they all seem to be fake. I was faking as well. I admit not calling back. I know I was just lonely. I am a lonely person. I feel like I've been lonely forever. 

My mom is fine. She's been very supportive. She's annoying most of the time. But I am glad she's there. 

Dad is ok. He's in Qatar. He's my dad. 

Ate is fine with her hubby. 

My dogs. I miss them. 

I am such a heartless machine now. What have I done. haiyo. 

Out. 

JOB OPENING - Ultimate Choosy AKO

It's been 4 months since I've been here. Super choosy when it comes to work, I can't believe Filipinos are priced too low. Come to think about it, we are so hard working in any and every field. 

BTW, I almost had a job last December in a Hotel. I don't want to work there. I don't even know how my CV flew all the way to their HR. Then came this job interview, I really wanted to be in, but unfortunately, I didn't get in.

Things that makes me stuck on third/final interviews. 

One - UAE Driver's License, OK! Fine I am working on it. I've heard driving license is a business here. Hopefully won't take it 2 times. I have a license in MNL anyway. Not valid, OK! Working on it.

Two - UAE working experience, OK! I don't but if you read my resume I am better than most of the HR Manager's I've talked with. They don't even know how to speak English well. 

Third - Holding a mother's visa, I don't think that's a problem. :) 

Fourth - Tenure, I don't think you have to worry about my tenure, even if you call my references, I am confident enough the they will tell you how a great Marketer I was. 

Fifth - They sensed that I am GAY? no... IDK.. 

Lastly, dear lord God. I know you are doing this for me to learn. I think I am done being so down, I need to step up now so please please please give me the opportunity to show my skills. I am so bored already and my head is turning tofu. 

Why am I here? What the hell am I doing here? random thoughts creating a war at my head. I am too weak for disappointments. Then I cried infront of my mother on my last interview, I felt so low and under. I even thought na sana hindi na ako nag college with that kind of offer or I could've stayed at my old job.

I started blaming my ex at the back of my mind. But it's no use. I gotta move on and get the pieces of me back. I stopped crying, I thought of being grateful. I am grateful for having my mother. A mother who's very supportive and doesn't make me feel useless. Be grateful July, there are a lot of unfortunate people out there.

I regained my composure and came back strong. Apply lang ng apply. 

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Job Opening: GIRL FRIEND 6 months contract, with potential conversion to permanent employment.
How fun is it to be in recruiting?!

HIRE ME!

JUST LET ME IN! COMEON! 

CONGRATULATIONS TO ME AND MY MOM!

Betty's Cakes WON first place at Forever Living Product's - Baking Contest! The contest was to include FLP products to the cake.

                                 Entry: FLOURLESS CHOCO-LITE with BEE POLLEN CAKE 

                                                             Our Video Presentation

It was Thursday night, Mom and I decided to go to Forever Living Products - DUBAI to buy 2 cases of FAB energy drink because I have a basketball tryout the next morning and we wanted to sell the said energy drink. In the same day in the afternoon I have to receive my award as an AS at FLP.

 I was looking around the posters and I saw FLP got talent, I was thinking of what to do for the contest, but Power Joarn popped my thought bubble and invited me to a cocktail contest and I was really lost for words. I looked around again and I saw the baking Contest. I asked Power Joarn “pwede pa po ba dito?” She said “oo pwede pa, sign up ka na, para bukas!”. I was like “.........wala ngggg timeeeeeeeee............” 

That was 8pm in the evening.

I immediately told mom “MOMMM..... bakit hindi mo alam to?!”. Mom said “akala ko kasi baking kasi lessons”. She still has an excuse. Power Sheryl our upline said, “mam asa page yun!”..........

So to cut the story short, we decided to join the contest. :)))

The hardest part of the contest preparation was we had to make a 5 minute video presentation. We finished baking and shooting by 3am and I haven't edited the video. So 3am to 3:30am I was editing and I stopped by quarter to 4am because my tryout will start at 7am. GOODLUCK GALORE TALAGA!

We woke up 7am. Video not yet finished, and my tryout went well at Safa park. I got IN as point guard! :))

Then again, Mom and I have to go home by 11:30am cause she has to deliver an UBE Cake and someone will pick up another UBE cake.

I was editing our video from 12pm to 230pm! hindi na ako nakaligo! MY GOSH! We were in panic on the way to FLP. We thought we couldn't make it. And the rest was history! WE WON FIRST PLACE! :)

It's such a mother and daughter struggle! The whole day was worth it!

We even forgot to eat breakfast and lunch. Such a sweet win for us. I love you forever MOM! :))

Don't forget to like us on FACEBOOK - Verangaling Cakes - DUBAI , UAE

MARCH 25 - I AM FOREVER

I've been very busy these past few days. Still doing part-time but my salary when converted to peso is HUGE! Mas malaki pa sa sahod ng manager mo ho! :)))

Anyway, I hope to get a permanent job this month or next month. I won't be that choosy anymore.This blog is an update to my JANUARY 23 Entry. It's been 62 days on 300 Calorie meal per day and still continuing Aloe Vera Juice intake. The objective is still the same. "To make my crush. CRUSH me." Grammatically wrong but you know what I mean. :))

I was 65kg when I came here in Dubai filled with fat and sorrow. I was an emotional eater. Then I decided to be better in all aspects this 2013. Change and to love yourself more.

I joined FLP for personal use of their products, now I am one of their International Distributors. I hit two birds in one stone, pumayat na ako nag ka pera pa ako. :)

             
                                       This was me one day before my diet - January 2, 2013

                                                                     After 2 days

Day 4

Day 6

 Day 8

Day 9

Day 55  - 55kg

58th day on Diet. 2nd to the left - First Place Baking Contest

My diet includes - 45 minutes jog every night and NO RICE.

FOR INQUIRIES. PLEASE LET ME KNOW. LOSE WEIGHT AND GAIN MORE CONFIDENCE.

CLEAN 9 - FOREVER LIVING PRODUCTS

Over Thinking for EVERYTHING

You can't blame me. I am just human. 

Maraming paraan para sumaya. Tandaan. Hapiness is a choice. 

Maging GRATEFUL. Salamat Karla Escoto for teaching me how to be grateful.(RIP)

Grateful, for having responsible parents. They are not perfect but I am grateful to have them.

Grateful to have my sister, we didn't started as friends when we were young but now I am glad to know that I can lean on her in times of trouble.

Grateful for those friends who stayed and listened.

I WILL BE GRATEFUL for those who refuse to know my side and disowned me as a friend. 

Grateful for all of the unicorns and shit that happened to my existence. 

I WILL BE FOREVER GRATEFUL.

Hindi Naging Tayo

Written by: July Veranga

Ngayon, Bukas, Kahit kelan, hindi ko maiintindihan

Mga bagay na hindi pa masusuklian

Boses mo ang naririnig

Ikaw lang at ako

Hindi mo kelangan magsalita

Kitang kita sa iyong mga mata

Alam ko na ang sasabihin mo

Baka nga siya na nga ang para sayo

Kung satingen mo sasaya ka sa kanya 

Malaya ka na

Hindi kita hahabulin 

Pipilitin kong sumaya rin

Ok lang kung mahal mo na siya

Kahit sabihin mo sa lahat na kahit kailan

Hindi naging tayo

Ok lang na ikahiya mo ako sa kanya

Un naman ang mahalaga diba?

Pangarap ko na lang na bumalik ka

Yakapin mo ako habang nakatingin sila

Kung satingen mo sasaya ka sa kanya 

Malaya ka na

Hindi kita hahabulin 

Pipilitin kong sumaya rin

Ok lang kung mahal mo na siya

Kahit sabihin mo sa lahat na kahit kailan

Hindi naging tayo

Hindi magbabago

Umulan man or lumayo ako

Alam ko mawawala din ito

Pero habang buhay kitang ilalagay sa puso ko

Pangarap ko na lang na bumalik ka

Yakapin mo ako habang nakatingin sila

Kung satingen mo sasaya ka sa kanya 

Malaya ka na

Hindi kita hahabulin 

Pipilitin kong sumaya rin

Ok lang kung mahal mo na siya

Kahit sabihin mo sa lahat na kahit kailan

Hindi naging tayo.......

Mom's Surprise BIRTHDAY PARTY AND CAKE

 JOB WELL DONE VERANGALINGS! Our plan was successful!

Weeks before my mom's birthday, I requested Kuya Melvin(President of ADU Alumni), to re-schedule their fake meeting on the 21st of January(Monday) - I told him about the surprise plan and requested them to wear VIOLET! :)) MOM is an active BOD - treasurer of Adamson Alumni Association - UAE btw.

Usually they have meetings on Wednesdays at COMFORT INN HOTEL - 25aed Filipino Buffet. But Mom really thought that they will have a meeting on the said date. THANKS ADU ALUMNI! GREAT ACTING! LOL! 

Also I'd like to thank Ate Sheng for helping me invite some of her FDSC friends. :)

SO there. 

I told MOM that a BOY friend ordered a cake for her sister's birthday, but the cake was really for MOM'S surprise PARTY! :))) While we were doing the this beautiful rainbow cake I remember mom saying...

  "Masisiyahan sigurado ung bibigyan ng cake!"

                             "Ang ganda namaaaan!"  "palitan mo yung box julybeth, julybeth!" :))))

           When she reached the table for 15 - party poppers everywhere! boom! SURPRISE TITA BETTY! 

I immediately kissed and hug her and told her that the cake was for her. She was very very very verrryyyyyyyyyyy surprised.

Mom, laughing her way out as she was very surprised and off guard - she was explaining how bad I fooled her in this set up.

                                              Mom laughing at its finest. PRICELESS!

Flowers to my mother of pearls. I LOVE YOU MOMMY! YOU LOVE ME EVERYDAY WITHOUT ANY DOUBTS.

                                        SUPER HAPPY MOM! SHE LOVED OUR GIFT! (Ate and I)

VERANGALING FAMILY PRESENTSSSS HBD MOMMY BETTYYY!!! :))) GANGNAM STYLE VER 2013
Forgive me I really don't know how to dance, the hair is convincing though. DIBA? diva?? nohh?

Then again, I want to express my gratitude to all of my mommy's friends who took a little bit of their time to surprise her that evening. Especially to those who wore VIOLET! :) THANK YOU! 

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MOM: Sinong bumili ng kandila??! papatayin ko??!!
Jul: ME? huhu.. don't kill meee MOM! 

MOMMIES ARE LOVEEEEE