Of course.

There will be one person who knows how to make you happy, effortless. 

He/she will look at you as if you are the best person in the world. 

This person will love you and your failures. 

This lover will accept your past and will create happy memories with you.

Thinking about this person can make you climb mountains and capture aliens. 

This person will share things with you and you know that this 

person doesn't like to share. 

This love doesn't care if you became thinner or thicker. 

He/She really knows what to say when you need comforting words

Respects you as a human and doesn't see you as an atm

There's a constant comfort when you see each other

Everything is in sync, consistent and almost perfect.

You do not care about anything else but this person. 

Sitting in silence, missing each other even when together. 

Have you ever felt perfectly in love? 

Talking About Forgiveness and Taking the High Road

There was this guy in my old department who loves to tease me. I do not mean to be rude but seeing him makes me pissed sometimes. I do not know if it was the kachupoy hair style or his thick one lined eyebrows. There was one day, I got used to the teasing and I rarely answer back. Because making patol is human, to make dedma is divine. I try to stay in my cool and most of the time I ignore him. He usually teases me by my eating habits at work, my shoes and weight gain.

When I got promoted, I rarely get to see him. But these days he always pass by my new department. Again, annoying face in the morning, trying to chit chat, then attacks my shoes or weight gain. One day, I couldn't take the teasing because maybe because I was hungry and pressured at work. My new colleagues heard the teasing.

"Good Morning July"

"Good Morning (I wasn't looking at him, I knew I was about to snap)"

"You are gaining too much weight"

"What the heck? you never lost weight since I met you, please? what do you care this is my body, I can afford food" (he smirked and walked away)

My colleagues, went dull and quiet seeing me growl and defend my fat state. They knew I was pissed. Don't you just hate people attacking your weight? I have a very long patience. I know the truth may hurt, but as a lady(yes I am a girl) and him constantly attacking me. What the hell does he want? People of the universe, what do you care about my weight gain? this is my body. I want to eat, I can afford to buy food. MYOB - mind your own business.

The last time I have checked, attacking me wont make anyone thinner or prettier. I just do not get the inappropriate attacks. I do believe in the verse "Do not unto others as you would have them do unto you". I keep myself quiet and tried to contain revengeful words, besides he is no thin to attack me frequently. I try to be very mannered and respectful, but he crossed a very thick line.

Decided that when I catch a glimpse of him, walk away and do not make an eye contact. I do not want to be bullied, humiliated and reminded of how I am gaining weight. He once tried to talk but I stood up and went to the toilet. I saw him in the pantry when I was about to get coffee, I walked away and took water on the other side of the pantry. He greets me one time and I didn't looked at him, or smiled or greeted back. It was a week of completely ignoring him. Then the other day, he cornered me on my table.

"July, what's wrong, you are not looking at me or greeting me back, are you upset with me?"

"Not really, But I just don't want you to ruin my day, as you always do by attacking my weight"

"I am sorry about what I said, We are colleagues July. Sorry again, have a great day"

"Fine, just try to filter what you say"(Looked at him and he gave me this pussy cat forgive me face).

I did not expect asshole to be that sincere. I hope the teasing stops there. I really hope not to get any bad vibes in the morning from him or anyone.

Adulthood is so strange, I just want to earn, sleep, eat and repeat.

Please lang, Bawal manita.

Silence

Call it MAGIC

I lost count, wait maybe it has been 7 or 8 years since I last saw her. During my first year life in Miriam College I admit she was one of my great friends, Until she transferred from BSBA - Marketing to International Studies. Eventually she left Miriam College to study at CSB. When she left katipunan, everything turned out to be a dust of memory, a memory of great younger years were we got busted in so many ways and we got so damn drunk at someone's place I can't even remember.

Those were the days, alright!

I admit I was a bit attached, because usually I keep my circle of friends small and intact. But sometimes, you know when things change, people change, feelings change. Change is very constant. Haha. Indeed. I guess, we have grown apart.

There were times my team mate, her ex gf by the way, were talking about her, whatever happened to Trish? Then we continue stalking her in FB. Oh she became a fashionista now, shopping with Megan Young and a lot of college celebrities. Her name is Trisha now, with an A. Trisha Velarmino. We even said that we can never get to talk and hang out with her like we used to. Then eventually, I have heard she became a travel blogger.

Finally she visits Dubai. I was not even nervous to see her, I was ready to be rejected and shrugged. But lo and behold, I didn't expect she would still recognize me. Call it Magic. I thought she would have this amnesia all of a sudden.. Deym! Trish you're still the same person I met! Humbled to be acquainted, again! I hope to see you soon. INSHALLAA!

                                                                       2005 and 2016 

                                        Photos taken before she gets into WIKIPEDIA. Haha! 

People, do read her blog ----- psimonmyway.com

NEO took the wrong pill?

In the movie Matrix, I remember NEO had a choice to take the red pill or the blue pill. The lesson here is to chose wisely.

I am sorry, self, I have been giving you stress. I have noticed the similarities long ago, I just kept quiet and it scares me. I thought of running away from it, a couple of times. It makes me unhappy to be honest. How dysfunctional It can turn out in time. How I am putting myself into a cycle that I am not built for. I brought myself into an imperfectly imperfect situation.

I have been asking myself, is this really working or I am just fooling myself?

I feel sorry while writing this. I wan't someone to fill this emptiness, can somebody fill sands to these bumps. I can't help but feel needy. I can't help but feel sorry. I am so sorry, self.

I am deep shit, maybe, I did took the wrong pill. I was suppose to feel happy today, But as usual, when drama happens the saga continues. I am tired of this shit. I know, my intuition is great. I am so sorry self. I am. 

They Will Never Change

I was watching MMK last week, it was about a single mom, who got married again and it turned out that the guy she married was a drug addict. There was a line there that said "Hindi na siya mag babago para sayo". I guess some things will never change. Choose wisely.

almost 30

I want to thank all of the people who remembered me on my 22nd(mental age) birthday! Lol.

My life eversince I came here in UAE has been filled with triumphs(not the bra lol) and challenges (professionally and personally).

I could not overcome the trials without the support of my family and the people who truly loves me despite of my mood swings(lol).

I am lucky that at this age to have formed new friendships and strengthen some of the old ones.

I can only wish another year to improve myself and become a better UNICORN.

I want to tag everyone but you guys might look into it as a game notification. Lol. Then again thanks!

Ps. Bawal manita ng mga tumataba at pumapayat. ‪#‎changeiscoming‬

Thanks sa ngangabels na photo Des! Perfek timing!