expired

It took me a while to set my mind straight. The anxiety and confusion has been a handful for me to carry since I last saw you. But just so you know, I am now okay even after knowing that you refused to take me back.

I understand that my intentions does not spark hope to you any more, and it's okay. Maybe you are right, we are not a match.

If my dreams do not give any relevance to yours, well it was only what I have yet to offer.

If my feelings for you aren’t strong enough, I wouldn’t beg you to stay.

And if you must see your ex gf again along with your potential partners, I just have to understand that and let go.

I have cherished you in ways you will never know and yes, I figured you’ll never appreciate them. Instead you tell everyone I fucked you over and over. Still, I let love flow in me, and still I was not able to win your heart and give you a ring, there’s nothing that I regret. I have given more than what I was ought to give. It was a fair fight I have braved.

Thank you for leaving me at my worst... I really tried and bended just not to break. I over extended myself just for you. We had our fair share of mistakes but I was the only one forgiving them in the end. I didn't know you kept them, while I was trying to be a better person for you but thank you. I'll be a better person for myself and I learned that I can love that hard and I can forgive too.

I did my best, I did, to keep and fight our relationship but in the end that love of mine is not enough for you to stay with me. Letting you go and accepting the fact that we are not meant for each other will make me more strong and will give more opportunity to explore life with different path to take.

As I let go of those hands that I once dreamt of holding for a lifetime, I gave you the freedom to find your happiness. I still firmly believe that love will complete whatever that’s been missing in you but perhaps you need it from someone else.

For that, I stopped texting you, I did not call you anymore. l stopped looking at our videos and photographs that I have on my phone.

The love I wished to share with you, this time, I will give back to myself. Maybe someday, I will be able to free myself from your painful love.

But if, one day, you find yourself wanting me back, please understand that I won’t come back… if you still don’t intend to love me back.