Silence

Call it MAGIC

I lost count, wait maybe it has been 7 or 8 years since I last saw her. During my first year life in Miriam College I admit she was one of my great friends, Until she transferred from BSBA - Marketing to International Studies. Eventually she left Miriam College to study at CSB. When she left katipunan, everything turned out to be a dust of memory, a memory of great younger years were we got busted in so many ways and we got so damn drunk at someone's place I can't even remember.

Those were the days, alright!

I admit I was a bit attached, because usually I keep my circle of friends small and intact. But sometimes, you know when things change, people change, feelings change. Change is very constant. Haha. Indeed. I guess, we have grown apart.

There were times my team mate, her ex gf by the way, were talking about her, whatever happened to Trish? Then we continue stalking her in FB. Oh she became a fashionista now, shopping with Megan Young and a lot of college celebrities. Her name is Trisha now, with an A. Trisha Velarmino. We even said that we can never get to talk and hang out with her like we used to. Then eventually, I have heard she became a travel blogger.

Finally she visits Dubai. I was not even nervous to see her, I was ready to be rejected and shrugged. But lo and behold, I didn't expect she would still recognize me. Call it Magic. I thought she would have this amnesia all of a sudden.. Deym! Trish you're still the same person I met! Humbled to be acquainted, again! I hope to see you soon. INSHALLAA!

                                                                       2005 and 2016 

                                        Photos taken before she gets into WIKIPEDIA. Haha! 

People, do read her blog ----- psimonmyway.com

NEO took the wrong pill?

In the movie Matrix, I remember NEO had a choice to take the red pill or the blue pill. The lesson here is to chose wisely.

I am sorry, self, I have been giving you stress. I have noticed the similarities long ago, I just kept quiet and it scares me. I thought of running away from it, a couple of times. It makes me unhappy to be honest. How dysfunctional It can turn out in time. How I am putting myself into a cycle that I am not built for. I brought myself into an imperfectly imperfect situation.

I have been asking myself, is this really working or I am just fooling myself?

I feel sorry while writing this. I wan't someone to fill this emptiness, can somebody fill sands to these bumps. I can't help but feel needy. I can't help but feel sorry. I am so sorry, self.

I am deep shit, maybe, I did took the wrong pill. I was suppose to feel happy today, But as usual, when drama happens the saga continues. I am tired of this shit. I know, my intuition is great. I am so sorry self. I am. 

They Will Never Change

I was watching MMK last week, it was about a single mom, who got married again and it turned out that the guy she married was a drug addict. There was a line there that said "Hindi na siya mag babago para sayo". I guess some things will never change. Choose wisely.

almost 30

I want to thank all of the people who remembered me on my 22nd(mental age) birthday! Lol.

My life eversince I came here in UAE has been filled with triumphs(not the bra lol) and challenges (professionally and personally).

I could not overcome the trials without the support of my family and the people who truly loves me despite of my mood swings(lol).

I am lucky that at this age to have formed new friendships and strengthen some of the old ones.

I can only wish another year to improve myself and become a better UNICORN.

I want to tag everyone but you guys might look into it as a game notification. Lol. Then again thanks!

Ps. Bawal manita ng mga tumataba at pumapayat. ‪#‎changeiscoming‬

Thanks sa ngangabels na photo Des! Perfek timing!

Lito

Hindi ko maintindihan ang aking nararamdaman ngayon. Gusto ko lamang, ng isang taong makikinig saakin. Isang taong kilala ako at mapapatahan ang aking kalooban. Noon nanay ko lang ang may kakayahang gawin iyon, Pero ngayong gabi, hinahanap hanap ko ang taong may kakayahan amuhin ako. Patahanin ang maingay kong kalooban, hindi ko manlang maiyak ang nararamdaman ko dahil nag labo labo na ang aking nararamdaman. Ang masasabi ko na lang. Kaya mo yan Lito Berting. Lito pala ang first name ko. Charot.

Punyeta. Galit at malungkot ako. 

Wait for it.

Greatness was never achieved by never failing.

I wanted promotion so bad. I was thinking of a better career because I know I can work hard for it. I just needed a plan. I wanted to be better. I want confidence back in my system and so I took Nebosh classes for me to be able to practice Health and Safety, I was thinking of being a HSEQ Inspector. I have read books that people can earn a lot in that profession. It took me 3 months of training, studying and ignoring everyone. I isolated myself. I wanted to be in the HSEQ Dept. I studied so bad, invested time and money. I prayed daily, I want it so bad, it was a 3000AED investment. I saved, like what I did on my driver's license which I took take one by the way haha at 5200AED NET!

AND after all the hard work. I flunked and it was amazing. AMAZING!

I didn't feel bad, a little cringe was there when I think of the money spent. A week before the results, I got promoted. Into a different department. It wasn't planned. It wasn't what I have hoped for. But God gave me something better. I may have lost money but I was happy for doing something rather than staying in my comfort zone. It doesn't matter anymore, when you fall you rise.

I will still try to take another retest or give nebosh another shot. We'll see, but for now Procurement courses are on!

Just wanted to share how God hears our prayers. We should trust God's timing because it is perfect! Never despair, if you don't get what you want, it may be because it will not be good for you or the timing is just not right yet. Plan for it, pray for it, and wait for it. :)