Silence

Call it MAGIC

I lost count, wait maybe it has been 7 or 8 years since I last saw her. During my first year life in Miriam College I admit she was one of my great friends, Until she transferred from BSBA - Marketing to International Studies. Eventually she left Miriam College to study at CSB. When she left katipunan, everything turned out to be a dust of memory, a memory of great younger years were we got busted in so many ways and we got so damn drunk at someone's place I can't even remember.

Those were the days, alright!

I admit I was a bit attached, because usually I keep my circle of friends small and intact. But sometimes, you know when things change, people change, feelings change. Change is very constant. Haha. Indeed. I guess, we have grown apart.

There were times my team mate, her ex gf by the way, were talking about her, whatever happened to Trish? Then we continue stalking her in FB. Oh she became a fashionista now, shopping with Megan Young and a lot of college celebrities. Her name is Trisha now, with an A. Trisha Velarmino. We even said that we can never get to talk and hang out with her like we used to. Then eventually, I have heard she became a travel blogger.

Finally she visits Dubai. I was not even nervous to see her, I was ready to be rejected and shrugged. But lo and behold, I didn't expect she would still recognize me. Call it Magic. I thought she would have this amnesia all of a sudden.. Deym! Trish you're still the same person I met! Humbled to be acquainted, again! I hope to see you soon. INSHALLAA!

                                                                       2005 and 2016 

                                        Photos taken before she gets into WIKIPEDIA. Haha! 

People, do read her blog ----- psimonmyway.com

NEO took the wrong pill?

In the movie Matrix, I remember NEO had a choice to take the red pill or the blue pill. The lesson here is to chose wisely.

I am sorry, self, I have been giving you stress. I have noticed the similarities long ago, I just kept quiet and it scares me. I thought of running away from it, a couple of times. It makes me unhappy to be honest. How dysfunctional It can turn out in time. How I am putting myself into a cycle that I am not built for. I brought myself into an imperfectly imperfect situation.

I have been asking myself, is this really working or I am just fooling myself?

I feel sorry while writing this. I wan't someone to fill this emptiness, can somebody fill sands to these bumps. I can't help but feel needy. I can't help but feel sorry. I am so sorry, self.

I am deep shit, maybe, I did took the wrong pill. I was suppose to feel happy today, But as usual, when drama happens the saga continues. I am tired of this shit. I know, my intuition is great. I am so sorry self. I am. 

They Will Never Change

I was watching MMK last week, it was about a single mom, who got married again and it turned out that the guy she married was a drug addict. There was a line there that said "Hindi na siya mag babago para sayo". I guess some things will never change. Choose wisely.