BACK OFF

Ngayon ko lang naalala na may personal blog ako. Buti naalaa ko ito buksan ngayong at naisipang mag-sulat muli. Sayang naman to kung hindi ko magamit itong blog ko na nagsilbing saksi sa lahat ng aking pinagdaanan at pinagdaraanan. 

Me napuna kasi akong litrato sa linkedin, na naisipan kong isiwalat sa blog ko. Although hindi naman ito sinabi ng aking ama, it mattered to me. Kaya pala...

Kaya pala hindi ka makatulog na maayos gabi-gabi, maliban sa hikbi at hilik ko gabi gabi na nirarason mo kaya hindi ka makatulog. Ayan, karma mo pala iyon sa lahat ng ninakawan mo ng pera, oras, tiwala at pag-ibig. Dika talaga tao. Scammer ka, Kahit ilang beses ko isipin ang mga mabubuti mong gnawa, pero meron nga ba? Demonyo ka. Wala kang puso. Pag-kat sarili mo lang ang iniisip mo. Galing na galing ka sa sarili mo ano? Alam ko pinangako kong wala ka nang maririnig saaken, last na talaga ito. So "back off"... Wag kang pretentious, kala mo naman hahabulen kita, ganda ka?

At bakit ako babalik sa taong dahilan ng aking pagkaka-dapa? Ang bobo ko naman kung babalikan kita. Masaya na ako at wag mo ako idadamay sa miserable mong buhay. 

BACK OFF.

You choose?

Are you vaccinated or not? no schedule yet, sure, too busy. I respect that, yeah, you are unvaccinated, yet. But I wish we all understand how important it is to be vaccinated. I am vaccinated and you should respect that too. I’m certainly not vaccinated to please anyone. Below are my reasons why I am vaccinated.

·        My mom died because of covid

·        To protect the rest of my family, friends and community                                                                                                                                                                        

·        I do not want to occupy a hospital bed when others are sick or injured

·        This is to minimize the effects of COVID-19 on my body, fact that I was positive 2 times.

·        To help our healthcare workers our heroes at this time

·        To help get our country back to what it was and the whole world

 

And yes, I don’t know what is in this vaccine, or every other vaccine I have had - Vaccines I ‘had’ to have feel safe in my workplace, and to travel around the city whilst everything seemed to be normal. But I do know the vaccines helped most people as we are fighting something we cannot control, science is giving us a weapon.

Is it perfect? Not sure. But then neither are most medications. Have you ever read the possible side effects pamphlet inside your medication? Scary. But choosing to be vaccinated is better. So please be safe.

Life is short, very short ❤ ️

9 years ago, not to long ago. (Never Had A Dream Come True)

This is one of those songs that no matter what I'm doing and I suddenly hear this song. It brings me back to my past lover and it drowns me in every other second. If you can really relate to this song, you may know what I'm talking about. “A part of me will always be with you”.

Araycu nemen.

This is for someone that changed your life forever. This person is probably still with you or they went away but it's saying that you'll always be a part of them and they'll always be in your heart. Even though you pray that you'll someday get over them because you know you have to, you just can't and you wonder why. You might end up marrying someone else or meeting someone else, but this person will always be your true love and you'll always think of them. And sometimes you can’t help but compare their love with the one that you are with now.  But what's the point of thinking about how it could have been? Yeah right….

So if you love someone and you haven't told them yet, perhaps it's best that you let them know how you feel. If you lose an opportunity, you might lose a lot.

This is quite depressing but I think if you were to sing it to someone special, it would be very romantic.

After all you still cherish and keep the memories that you had. Nothing beats the greatest love.  

Never Had A Dream Come True

SCLUB7

Everybody's got something

They had to leave behind

One regret from yesterday

That just seems to grow with time

There's no use looking back, or wondering

How it could be now or might've been

All this I know

But still I can't find ways to let you go

I never had a dream come true

'Til the day that I found you

Even though I pretend that I've moved on

You'll always be my baby

I never found the words to say

You're the one I think about each day

And I know no matter where life takes me to

A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory

I've lost all sense of time

And tomorrow can never be

'Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind

There's no use looking back, oh wondering

How it should been, now oh might've been

All this I know

But, still I can't find ways to let you go

I never had a dream come true

'Til the day that I found you

Even though I pretend that I've moved on

You'll always be my baby

I never found the words to say

You're the one I think about each day

And I know no matter where life takes me to

A part of me will always be with you

You'll always be the dream that fills my head

Yes you will

Say you will

You know you will oh baby

You'll always be the one I know I'll never forget

There's no use looking back, oh wondering

Because love is a strange and funny thing

No matter how hard I try and try

I just can't say good bye

No no no no

I never had a dream come true

'Til the day that I found you

Even though I pretend that I've moved on

You'll always be my baby

I never found the words to say

You're the one I think about each day

And I know no matter where life takes me to

A part of me will always be with you

Hanggang sa panaginip.

 Anu ba naman yan, hanggang sa panaginip.

Nariyan ka, mabuti sana kung maganda ang intensyon mo.

Ngunit hindi. Ninakawan mo pa ako sa panaginip ko. 

Dear Jake - My Open Letter

Dear Jake

First of all, I am sorry. I have judged you deliberately. I want to thank you for sharing us Charice Pempengco, her voice was amazing, I will never forget how amazed I was when she sang Lupang Hinirang in one of Manny Pacquiaos fight’s, grabe kilabot ko non. That’s a lot of great work and patience. I can’t imagine the hard ship she had endured. I re-call one time I was with a group of friends to watch ASAP. We saw her with a pink curler/roller, it was on her forehead. We were laughing at Charice on how cute and weird she was. She even said hello to us, I thought she was particularly eyeing on my ex that time. Funny. She sang Pyramid with Billy Joe that time. I don’t know if you’ll ever remember that for so many performances you have made.

A lot of times, you have been a topic of discussion, and majority was with our LGBTQI brothers and sisters. We thought of the things you could’ve considered before transitioning to Jake; the list goes on. I guess you are aware of them but you didn’t listen, to us. And it’s okay! Right! You are the captain of your own life. It’s your life!

But whilst watching your interview with Toni Gonzaga. I felt bad. I know how hurting it is to lie to yourself. To keep pushing on something you are not comfortable with. But look at you know, rising again. I wish I can be strong like you, and just like your song “if there's no pressure, there'll be no diamonds, So I don't mind it coming' my way, no I'm tired of putting out the fire, Freedom is all I desire, If there's no pressure, there'll be no diamonds, I know I will be a diamond, diamond, diamond, I know I will be a diamond, diamond, a diamond, oh”.

My real reason for pushing this blog is that we never really know if someone is hurting and is completely broken mentally and emotionally. So be kind. ALWAYS..

I salute you brother! Good job. I really like the song Diamond. I just want to say, that you may not know me personally, but you're one strong guy bro. Keep it going idol! I wish we can hang out turuan moko kumanta or just play ball. Just two ordinary human beings.  

 Labyu na rin bro! pakiss! 

/berting 

Belated Happy Independence DAY!

YOU,

To be honest, I don’t even think you are human enough to understand the word “back off”. 

You are so pathetic, you took all you can take and left. I have no kind words for you. 

Stop calling my friends, stop thinking they are your friends too. I don’t want to hear from you.

I don’t know you. I will never find time to know you.

Write about it

Ito na siguro ung pinaka BIG break na sinasabi ng lahat. Pero somewhere, in the middle of my heart, where I always feel like there is a huge hole that nobody can fill. I can only think of my sweet, loving and adorable Mom. 

I miss you MOM! I did it again! I see you smiling at me.Hayyy...

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Dear MOM,

Things are going well, I met someone, she is so nice, she takes good care of me and I take care of her too. She's tall, but I don't really care. I didn't expect to fall for her. But I did, I love her. Sayang, sana na-meet mo siya, I bet parehas kayong ma papa-tiktok, She is fun. She is way better than the rest. She loves me at my worst and only sees me as a priority. She has huge respect to you, even if hindi ka niya nakilala and that's really important yung may respect sa isa't isa and she's really into girls. Sana siya na Mommy, sana siya na life partner ko. Just that the damage from my previous lovers are affecting me, pero I hope she stays with me. She makes me happy. 

Mom, I live on my own now. I am paying rent, bills, bills, and I bought my dream car! I wish you were here when I took the car from Mazda showroom, ang saya ko, mas masaya siguro ako kung kasama ka, kayo ni gf nung gabing yon. I wish you were here. 

Work these days are overwhelming, I get to think of you more often. My FB memories points to movie dates with you. How I miss how you lift me up when I feel weak. You are such a happy pill Mom, you make things okay. I hope I made you proud up there. After all the breakdowns with you, Mom I got promotion again! Hehe... Ito na yung sinasabi mong, magaling ako. Yes! Finally naramdaman ko na naman siya. Thanks MOM! I will survive! I love you every day! please guide me always. 

Jul