8/8/22

YOU


Dear YOU, 

I have let you in my life a couple of times. I have forgiven and let go of all of the hurtful things you did to me. Yet you still have the audacity to tell me to face my problems, well fuck you. Fight me. I was never a victim of my own issues, I face them, I don't shut off, and I don't fucking run away like you. So back off and I don't ever want to hear from you.

Yes, I miss the child but you, no, never. You fucking liar. 

Never again I will let you in my life. 

Again fuck you! 

Berts. 



8/5/22

Song of the day

 


Your Love - KESHA 

Your love, your love
Your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love
Maybe I need some rehab
Or maybe just need some sleep
I got a sick obsession
I'm seein' it in my dreams
I'm lookin' down every alley
I'm makin' those desperate calls
I'm stayin' up all night hopin'
Hittin' my head against the wall
What you got, boy, is hard to find
I think about it all the time
I'm all strung out, my heart is fried
I just can't get you off my mind
Because your love, your love
Your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love
I said your love, your love
Your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love
Won't listen to any advice
Momma's tellin' me I should think twice
But left to my own devices
I'm addicted, it's a crisis
My friends think I've gone crazy
My judgment's gettin' kinda hazy
My status is gonna be affected
If I keep it up like a lovesick crack-head
What you got boy is hard to find
I think about it all the time (all the time)
I'm all strung out, my heart is fried
I just can't get you off my mind
Because your love, your love
Your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love
I said your love, your love
Your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love
I don't care what people say
The rush is worth the price I pay
I get so high when you're with me
But crash and crave you when you leave
So I gotta question
Do you wanna have a slumber party in my basement?
Do I make your heart beat like an 808 drum?
Is my love
Your drug
Huh your drug
Huh your drug
Huh your drug
Is my love your drug? (what you got boy)
Because your love, your love
Your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love
I said your love, your love
Your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love
Because your love, your love
Your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love
I said your love, your love
Your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love
Hey! Hey!
So...
Your love, your love
Your love, your love...
Your love, your love, your love

8/3/22

Euphoria



Well, what was that all about?

I just wanted a friend who has

The same wavelengths as I have.

I have been adjusting, fussing, and missing someone

Who can at least understand the level of my thoughts?   

 

Welcome to the sandpit, miss.

Cherished every moment,

For these do not come often.

As I looked her in the eyes.

I cannot be, drowning in a pool of emotions.

 

I kept floating, feeling intoxicated.

Familiarizing the feelings I try to hide.

Suddenly, Euphoria filled my lungs,

Shrugged my fondness towards her.

I was satiated, nervous. The more I doubt, the more

I realize she will leave me ravenous, and craving.

 

Now reality sinks in

Separated by thousand miles.

I’m not hers, & definitely, she’s not mine.

I am not her even her first, second, or third.

Yet what would I do to have another day with her?


Another day to pretend she is mine and I am hers. 

Cause It felt better than coffee or tea in the morning.

Such a wakeful unrequited love.