Happy - Pharrel Williams
Sometimes happiness scares me. Being happy would always reciprocate
a slight sense of panic, wherein you get yourself to thinking “watch out, July,
Happiness will last until a certain time, and there won’t be enough for
tomorrow”.
Lately, I feel happiness from within, but I can’t stop and
wonder how long this feeling is going to stick around. I always hope it doesn’t
stop and the best way to feel happy is to
stop overthinking.
Because I still
struggle with this a lot, I love being happy, but I also don’t want to feel
happy, because I am scared of not always feeling happy.
Like most people, we
all do have happy and sad moments. My heart is constantly hesitating, wallowing everything if things
are even worth my time. Maybe, because I am scared of being hurt by the same
people who least I expect the most to hurt me. Maybe I just need to reflect
more and allow myself to feel happy, I will decide to be happy, because I have roof,
I had breakfast, lunch and dinner, I have good friends, a good bed, a partner
to be with in bed, I finished college, I have great family, I have a job, I
have great colleagues.
So I will push my doubts aside for a while, I will forget
all of the “what if’s” and “buts”, and let happiness flow in me, and today is going
to be amazing. I deserve to be happy. J
CHEROPHOBIA - is the fear of being happy.
