4/24/16

Thank you LORD


Ito na yata ang isa sa pinaka masayang araw ng buhay ko, ng tawagin ako ng boss ko sa kalagitnaan ng trabaho para sabihing Procurement Coordinator na ako. Hindi ko talaga inaasahan ang lahat. Iba kasi talaga ang hiniling ko kay Lord,. Iba ang inaasahan ko. At hinigitan pa niya ang plano ko. Hindi ko inaasahan ang oportunidad na ito. Ang sarap balik balikan ang mga pangyayari kanina. Lahat ng pagod ko, lahat ng insecurities ko, lahat ng iyak ko kakadasal - kakarosaryo nadinig ni Lord. Sobrang pag iigihan ko po Lord, natatakot ako pero gagawin ko ang lahat. Kakayanin ko ang lahat. Salamat.



4/23/16

Song of the day



I hate u, I love u

Gnash feat Olivia O'Brien

Feeling used
But I'm
Still missing you
And I can't
See the end of this
Just wanna feel your kiss
Against my lips

And now all this time
Is passing by
But I still can't seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time I see you
Realize how much I need you


I hate you I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you

You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her


I miss you when I can't sleep
Or right after coffee
Or right when I can't eat
I miss you in my front seat

Still got sand in my sweaters
From nights we don't remember

Do you miss me like I miss you?
Fucked around and got attached to you
Friends can break your heart too, and
I'm always tired but never of you

If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that shit
I put this reel out, but you wouldn't bite that shit
I type a text but then I nevermind that shit
I got these feelings but you never mind that shit
Oh oh, keep it on the low
You're still in love with me but your friends don't know

If u wanted me you would just say so
And if I were you, I would never let me go
I don't mean no harm
I just miss you on my arm

Wedding bells were just alarms
Caution tape around my heart
You ever wonder what we could have been?
You said you wouldn't and you fucking did
Lie to me, lie with me, get your fucking fix
Now all my drinks and all my feelings are all fucking mixed

Always missing people that I shouldn't be missing
Sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distance

I know that I control my thoughts and I should stop reminiscing
But I learned from my dad that it's good to have feelings

When love and trust are gone
I guess this is moving on
Everyone I do right does me wrong
So every lonely night, I sing this song


I hate you I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you

You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her


All alone I watch you watch her
Like she's the only girl you've ever seen
You don't care you never did
You don't give a damn about me
Yeah all alone I watch you watch her
She's the only thing you've ever seen
How is it you never notice
That you are slowly killing me


I hate you I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you

You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her

Stop the machine

I came to a point where I needed solitude and just stop the machine of thinking and enjoying what they call living, I just wanted to lie in the grass and look at the clouds.
Jack KerouacLonesome Traveler