Hello SG!

Just arrived here at my sister's apartment, ang kalat! haha! Kadiri may cup and tea paa! eww ka sister! :p First time kong mag MRT from Airport to Ate's place. Adventureness mats!

Next week Ill be in Thailand with Super Junyor Des! hayaa! too much gastos to think unemployed ako. Well sorry pinagpala e lol. chos sorry!

While here at SG, makakapag esep esep ako what to do with my life, to give you an idea, way back 5 years ago I planned to come out pag may 100k na ako sa bank account ko, that way kahit I disown ako, with or without a GF beside me, I have money to move on, pero I was sure my Parents and sister could not possibly disown me. Too much drama yata on TVs. Haha!

Anu nga ba ang gusto ko? FYI ang sarap lang mag type sa PC ni ate. wuhooo!

Sa ngayon, ang aking puso ay nasasaktan sa pinanood kong pelikula kahapon. Hunger Games, napaka bayolenteng mga bata naman. Naisip ko pano kung ako kinuha! OHA! kaloka naman....

Pangalawa, gusto ko yata mag ka anak, pero ayaw ko jumuba, ayaw ko mag ka anestisya katawan ko, sabi ng iba kong friend pag nalagyan ka na nag anestisya hahaha topak ka na forever! e masakit naman daw kung walang anestisya. GOOD LUCK JUL! paano ako mag kaka anak hate na hate ko ang mga lalake. lol

Pangatlo, I want to join a lesbian activism group. I am sick of hearing teenage lesbian couples na na kikick out sa school for loving their lerlers. At the same time, mag lecture na rin sa mga mag lerlers na wag naman sa school mag landian. NAMAN. I am sick of being teased, and people who are really scared to go out!

Pang apat, ewan ko. inaantok na ako!

Happy to be out ang proud! :) ohh yeah!

Another Thai Addiction

Last week me and my friend(Des - Junyor) descography.wordpress.com was doin a little research on Yes or No artists. Shempre nag hahanda kami kasi were going to their mini concert and we are already anticipating na wala talaga kaming maiintindihan.

Then we were talking about Due Arisara, the girl who was dead na deads kay Tina Supannad on the movie, Due Arisara or Jane in the movie was ZEE Matanawan Keenan's real ife ex gf. Zee btw is a girl! Oo tomboy siya! napatiklop ako. She looks like a man already at mas naggwapuhan ako sa kanya keysa kay Mario Maurer. I envy her because as per her interviews, I hope its true that she doesn't take shots for her to look like a man, and in Thailand its ok to be gay. OK! She's a very popular thai singer too. And everything she is right now is my frustration, ahaha I wanna be a singer too! lol Compare her to Aiza Seguerra, well.. siyang tunay na!

I am currently addicted to her song Have You Ever Really Loved Me?- check this link for your reference. ENJOY!

This other song made me cry pala, Ruk Mai Tao Kao Jai (Love Doesn’t Equal Understanding) check this link. :( See my ex gf broke up with me kasi she told me she wanted to get married. Still. OO pwede ko naman siya pakasalan e, pero definitely not here and she should have the courage din sana. Well this MTV, unfortunately, the girl chose the boy.

Hay, freedom to love gay people!

FIGHT!

To Cut My Hair or Not

1 I love cutting my hair short, some say I look happy and free. Puge minsan lol. Ikr! No need to comb my hair! Yes tamad ako mag suklay. I prefer the after bed look. Usually when my hair reaches my nape I go to profiles salon in katipunan and have my hair cut by Sonny. Btw, he's my favorite hair stylist! ;)) I dont care if he's gay or not! He's really good! The thing here is I love it when my hair is short but on the other hand men or stupid boys are 80% homophobic(IMO- in my opinion) they tend to be mean with us lgbt people. They are stupid insecure human beings, I dont even consider them as humans sometimes lol. Why cant men be open minded? Why? Ohh oonga pala! Men are extra nice with me lalo mna pag naka pony tail ako. Lol. Pakshit naman kasi ang init.

2 I am not super butch. I am not too tomboy sometimes. Honestly! Depende talaga sa mood ko kaya nahirapan din ako mag out. Lol.

3 Sad to say that when I was an Account Executive,(short hair) I used to wear a ring on my left hand so that my clients know/feel that I am married. That way it eliminates the thought that this sales person is a lesbow. Majority of my clients were male. Alpha stupid male. I had a few female clients back then, they usually think that I am just plain childish. Well whatever!

4 Then again, now that I am out of the closet I am still afraid to get bullied, to get unwanted opinions about how I look.

5 May 5, my sisters wedding, my sister said its ok to cut my hair. Supporting that wedding I have this friggin "sagala" or flores the achuchuchu on mid May at Paete. Lol. Mayhem!

6 I want my hair short but I might look too tomboy! Lol

7 Ill be in Thailand on April 29, to watch Yes or No Concert. Meet and greet Aom and Tina. I really want my hair cut so that Maybe just maybe I could be Aom's international lover lol pwede mangarap diba?? I want my hair short!

8 I want my hair short but my friends parents might hate or be irritated at me. Some of the oldies or the tanders bracket are not that liberal. I am so afraid for their comments. I remember when a friend's father told me once. "ikaw sana papaligawan ko sa anak ko e, ttomboy tomboy lang".
Soooooo what mas pogi ako sa anak niyo!!! Lol

9 Another friend of mine who was very christian, his father wanted to asked me if i am a tomboy, I can see it in his eyes he wanted to say impolite words. I dont hate christian/bornagain people pero ito lang dasal kayo ng dasal jan ng 5 oras e ansasama naman ng ugali mga chismosa mapanlait pa! Wait lang did God told you or gave you the right to hurt us lgbt people? Do you have the authority to just be inappropriate??? Naiinis lang ako. Keber na dapat ako kung keber, pero sino ka para magbasa ng bibliya sa harap ko. Kala mo naman kabait. Lech! Wag niu ko isali sa alive alive na yan! Pistingyawa! Ok na hb ako.... Respeto yun lang.

10 I want to be a business owner. Coffee shop, pero natatakot ako na baka walang bumili saakin kasi ganto ako.

Alam ko dapat hindi ko na ito iniisip. Alam ko hindi ko na dapat hinihimay pa ang lahat. Realization I am still afraid!
But I will come out strong. I am a strong person!

So eto na. Gusto ko talaga mag pagupit. Haharapin ko ang hagupit! Naks. Sorry malupit! Lol! Mabuhok mong armpit! Weh! Lol