2010

I am so stubborn. I can describe my stubbornness’s in many scenarios/moments/happenings etc, and I do hope I can express it in writing/blogging. Forgive me again for any grammatical errors. hehe.

I am so lonely and confused.
I just need to let it out by updating my blog.

It’s a sunny afternoon, May 4 at Luningning Street and I felt like writing. It’s been months since I updated my blog, reason? Stubbornness. I admit I havent been myself lately, I am having this miserable feeling of being sick and lonely for something so sacred. I burst in tears sometimes. I couldn't utter what I want to say.

I wish I could ease this pain in my chest with a snap. I lose my breath sometimes.. I Don't want to hurt anyone... I don't want too much attention... But unfortunately I catch too much attention whenever I am like this. Just like a baby who cried over spilled milk.

It's soo hard to pretend nothing is goin on. I am stronger than this I know I am. It kills me everyday seeing myself more hopeless than I used to.

I am being safe.
I am keeping my mouth shut. I dont even know how to start. I am scattered. Flattered. I wish I could really turn back time. I am confused as well.
I know what to do. I know what to do! for the nth time. I know what to do. But why do I fall on the same place where I think of you constantly. You just got me going circles. I miss you and I really do.