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My biggest fear is the lost of a family member(whether it is death or betrayal). I consider my friends as family. They are family that I chose to be close with. Believe me my dear, I am very exclusive with the people I share my blessings with. I value loyalty. I don't like barkadas, I am the buddy type person. MOST of the time I withdraw myself in a group of people, but I know I can get along with anyone. I am just selective. Carefully selective. Sometimes I even detach myself to my family, which is quite happening right now, cause I know they can hurt me a lot. Whether it is on my capabilities, my physical attributes or my achievements.

Anyway, what I wrote about you was true based on my vast memory on how you treated me. Totoo lahat yun. I didn't lambasted you. Maybe you just need to accept how bad you really were? we were so young, maybe you upgraded/improved your attitude now. I know you are not reading my blog. Cause yes, whoever reads my blog nga naman.

I thought about you more often. I thought I forgot about you. BTW, hopefully this is my last entry under your codename. Why can't I just erase you in my life? Cause I see you everywhere, you even look like one of my friends here that I refuse to get comfortable with. I guess people like you made a huge mark on me. I still pray about you. Don't worry, whoever reads my blog is one hell of genius.

Genius in a way that he/she wants to take my family away from me. Genius in a way he/she wants to hurt me for the second time. Genius, please do not manipulate, you know what I mean. Don't talk sly-ish. I know you really miss me? But please give this as a birthday gift to me. Stay away from my family.

At hindi porke't tahimik, duwag. Minsan, yung mga marunong tumahimik, yun ang matatapang. Kesa, yung maingay na naghahanap ng kakampi. *credits to my college classmate *who apparently hates you *diko siya kakampi, maybe may common grounds lang

#magtigilka #utangnaloobsainyo #kiusap #UTANGNALOOBWAGAKO #gvlangples #smilesandpresspublish #bertingwrites 

Me and my own

I feel like life has been sucked out of me. This year and for the last few months, I have had a strange problem. It it very hard to explain but I will try to write it. I can't stop but want to sleep and withdraw from people, I think it is taking over my life. I don't smoke, drink alcohol that much anymore but anyway I like eating. Haha. I am a strong person, I but this time I think this is quite serious. I don't even know what to do or say. I might be depressed or experiencing some anxiety. I do not like the idea of taking medicines and fear if I go to a psychiatrist I will just be electrocuted or given pills to mask the problem. I must face this. Sorry if I have not explained things the best, but I find it really hard to explain. I feel a bit shamed and down for no reason. I feel really sad. Maybe because....


I am turning 27 next month. I feel like I need to achieve personal and professional fulfillment for the rest of my life.  But I will stay positive.  Below are my daily reminders. 

1. I will sleep early 

2. I won't take work stress at home

3. I will exercise - soon 

4. I will start to lose weight. OMG 

5. I should write daily. 

6. I will save money.

7. I will keep dreaming and pursue my dream JOB 

8. I will not envy others achievements 

9. I will not compare myself to others

10. I will be contented and be happy for what I have

11. I will try not argue with anyone. Apologize when needed. 

12. Keep my cool.

13. Be grateful.

14. Be kind. 

15. Be polite.

16. Thou shall not cheat. 

17. Pray.

18. It is okay to cry.

19. Invest on myself.

20. Get out of my comfort zone. 

21. say thank you.

22. be mad sometimes.

23. learn a new language.

24. love my family.

25. splurge and buy something I really want. 

#breathes #missing #lordhelpme 

7 Possible things your ex lover thought of before letting you GO.

I suddenly thought of writing the above topic because I am trying to continue the novel I have started a few months ago and apparently I am on the 4th chapter. Hooray for day offs!

Anyway I thought of these things - because I was thinking about the what I felt when I broke up with my ex and what my exes may felt before they let me go. My ideas and my thoughts are trying to choke me. I felt hurt not because I want them back. But really, breaking up is devastating. Break ups are really saddening. Have you ever had your heart broken?

For those who are still wounded, please try to accept reality. You just have to let go and move on.

REASONS - Possible Reasons

1. They felt scared committing with you
They might felt that they have been dating the same old vanilla ice cream for years and that person doesn't seem to have plans with him/her in the future. There could be a third party, maybe one of them is scared with commitments. There is also a possibly that maybe, just maybe love isn't really enough.

2. They noticed that they are starting to conceal their true self in the relationship.
They start to feel that they are already lying too much in their relationship, they feel unhappy because they cannot be themselves in their relationship. Maybe they felt that they are not compatible with their partners.

3. They felt depressed and lost for a solution

Because their relationship is too complicated. Probably, his or her family doesn't want him or her and vice versa. One of them is psychotic, abusive or self centered. They might be in a secret relationship, they have money issues, business feuds, another factor RELIGION!

4. They thought of snooping around or contemplating about cheating
They thought of ways to keep you and at the same time to shrug you off by making things more complicated by finding another relationship. Well actually they already found a prospect, it is our call to take them back or not. To fight back or not. But for me, I won't accept cheaters anymore. I cannot live with a partner who can possibly abuse me for the second time.

5. They imagined their life without their partner
And they knew they can survive with out them. They knew they can live without him or her.

6. They kept on praying and hoping their partner will change or their feelings might change
They felt stuck with their partner's attitude problems, goals in life, financially, physical attributes. All the things that are maybe too conditional. They want more than your capacity or definition of love. They may also felt like you will never change, ever.

7. They do not feel good about themselves
They feel like they haven't found themselves and they need time and space to think of their personal well being. Example the guy felt like being an astronaut. She wanted to be a MOWdel. They can't be that person they want to be if their partners do not give support.

As I have said, every break up is devastating. They is no easy way to break someone's heart. Moving on is not a cake walk as well. But if love can fix everything. Then find ways to patch things up. Love is always the answer. sabi ni Kris Aquino... LOVE LOVE LOVE! 

Debt Debt Debt mo ay nakakasilaw - OFW Edition

You got that, I don't like debts. I do not like lending money for more than 500 Pesos(50AED). When somebody asks money I try not to lend them. But if it is below 50AED, I settled my mind that this amount will never go back in my hands. Lucky me if it comes back.

AANYWAAAAAYY.

Someone: Jul I need your help.
Jul: Kahit ano po wag lang pera. (BINGO) (Standard LINE) 


HOW TO BE FINANCIALLY READY?

1. Planning - This is a must to do for being financially stable. Planning is essential and it is always applied in everything. You gotta have a plan to secure your future financially.The question is what do you want when you reach your target money pot? Isn't it rewarding when youre in a financially happy stage??? like debt free. :D

2. Budget - This will help you be in control of your expenses. By budgeting your money you can a lot from necessities and wants (gadgets, leisure etc). Budget the basic needs vs your wants. Remember to buy the needs! needs are more important than wants. I came into a point where I do not like buying the latest gadget, the latest trend, I am devoted to simplicity and practicality. I am grateful of what I have. People - yuppies who are also OFWs please, save up.

3. Save money! make a certain percentage per pay day. This should be a must every month. Never wait for the month to end, You must sow the seed, before you can reap the harvest

4. I am an anti-credit card person. I used to have one. It is not that I am not responsible enough to handle or have one. I just don't want to worry about multiple payments each month. Tell you what a lot of OFWs are troubled in settling their credit card debts. We must not be complacent by the power of a credit cards privileges. REMEMBER - with credit card comes great responsibility!

5. Avoid loans. Do not invest if you are not confident with your earnings. DO NOT INVEST if you're going to be penniless due to uncertainties. BE SURE.

6. Never ask anyone to lend you money. - I don't ever wanna be in this case.If I do, that would be coins,

I can't think of anything anymore. I just do not like the feeling of having a debt, going to make a loan or being asked to lend money. Money I never liked money. No Money No honey. I have seen a lot of people living for money. Money as a source of happiness. Some say money makes us confident. But I say do not let the money dictate what you are.

"debt debt debt mo aaaayyy nakakasilaw lalalal..."

Birthday WISH LISH!!!!

Arranged by wants and needs LOL 

1.       See my partner

2.       Nike Air Jordan 5 Retro

3.       Clubmaster Eye glass - rayban

4.       Aviator - rayban

5.       Laptop – mac

6.       Earphones – senheiser beats whatever etc

7.       New watch – skagen or tissot

8.       Folding bike – dahon

9.       Omega – liniment, hindi yung watch J

10.   Salonpas stock

11.   Corporate clothes

12.   Handy cam – start posting or making videos for viddsee *wish 

Sony PJ530

13.   Sims 4 – oh my!

14.   Invest in condominium

Megaworld - Rockwell

15.   Invest insurance

Sunlife - Axa 

3   16.    Arabic Class
17.       Study MBA  *still looking for a school
18.       Get a car *uae – I WILL PASS Dubai licensure
  

Tagalog time with Zolika

Zolika - my self proclaimed emirati friend. Colleague at work.

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Jul: Hello, is this Abdul Jabbar? Ok ok. check your PDA we have complaints raised in your site. lalalalalala... (on telephone) (smirks) (bursts) (laughed)
Zolika: what is so funny?
Jul: Do you know what is the meaning of Jabbar in tagalog/filipino?
Zolika: What? Tell me?
Jul: when you perspire in your armpits and there's a sweat mark in what you are wearing. We call that jabbar!
Zolika: you know in islam, Abdul Jabbar means powerful.
Jul: That explains everything dear! Powerful. Indeed!
Zolika: LOL (slaps me from behind)

The Rich Man's Daughter

I heard the soap from my friend who is apparently a Marian Rivera fan. She tagged me on facebook that there will be another ground breaking teleserye from GMA and this time it is lesbian themed. As a lesbian, I was more excited and jumpy comparing to the GMAs previews soap My Husband's Lover(Gay themed) - finally! Kudos GMA for being brave enough to feature such admirable shows. I am not a fan of GMA, but I really admire their bravery for supporting lgbt rights. Indeed a milestone if we're going to talk about the Philippine Television

Glaiza and Marian*suppose to be Jade  

I would have loved to see Marian Rivera play the leading role, but when I saw the pilot episode, Rhian Ramos is totally good and she's making me like her more and more for each episode. This is so not Kapuso of me but I think Rhian is gonna smash this show. 

Moreover, Rhian Ramos is playing the wealthy heiress named Jade Tanchingco, her family is actually Filipino-Chinese. This angle of the soap makes the whole set more complicated, cause it reminds me of ABS-CBNs My Binondo Girl. See Jade is the youngest and unica ija. Her father was disowned by her rich grandparents because he married a Filipina, eventually her mother bore his two brothers and then came Jade, who was the favorite grandchild. Which is quite confusing because Chinese loves and always want first born sons. Am I wrong? Anyway, Jade's grandparents finally accepted his father back into the family when Jade was born. BTW, Jade is very close to her father whom she calls "dada". 

Althea Guevarra portrayed by my new crush Glaiza de Castro, was actually a wedding coordinator and she met Jade in his brother's wedding. The part where they both laid eyes on each other reminded me of the movie Imagine me and you. I felt the magical chemistry between the two. I felt butterflies in my stomach. Seryoso kinilig ako....  I am loving the gazes between them, this is so intense! 

Glaiza and Rhian as Althea and Jade 

I hope the soap will last for a year. I hope this soap will not cause any issues especially for the stereotypes as Philippine TV is prone to these things. 

INTENSE DIBA? JEEEZ..